Thanksgiving

Yesterday did not feel like Thanksgiving. It was a little sad not being surrounded by a whole bunch of family. I also miss not going to my cousins house in GA to be around everyone. It's the only time during the year that we see them. It was held at my counsin Neil's house for the first time and mom said the younger kids (Mackenzie's age) had a blast. I'm wondering if the cousins that are my age still have to still at the kids table or if we have graduated yet? Surely me having 3 kids would assure my graduation.

I left at 11am to go see Avery at the hospital. It was such a beautiful day outside. The sun was shining and it was in the 70's outside. It was just a perfect day to have Thanksgiving. I got to the hospital right at noon and in time for little miss priss' feeding. She was asleep so I got to wake her up. She had on the same outfit she had been wearing for 3 days so a nurse got me a new outfit for her. I'm telling you I just love seeing her little naked body. She's so petite and cute. She knew it was feeding time. You could tell by the way she was moving her mouth around.

We got all comfortable and I fed her the bottle. She again took it like a champ! She ended up taking a few more CC than she was suppose to. She also burped for the first time for me. It was a tiny and ladylike burp but it counted. She was wide awake and we just sat there until 1:45 looking at each other and me talking to her. I couldn't believe she was up that long. I am not complaining though. I savored the moment. She finally drifted off to sleep and that's when I left her. My youngest princess, how much I love you.

I was absolutely exhausted when I got home. The drive is just tiring. I got home around 3pm and Lee and Jackson were outside playing football and enjoying the day. I opted to go lay in the bed for a little bit. I sprawled out until 4 and Jackson came to join me. Our Thanksgiving dinner was very unconventional. We had steak and potatoes. Jackson was thrilled because he loves steak. I seriously think he ate more steak than I did. Well I know for a fact he did. He then finished my potato for me. He ate a whole lot for a 3 year old.

We watched some football last night. Not very interesting games being played but it was something to watch. Jackson ended up falling asleep around 8:30. I for the life of me couldn't sleep. I was up until 1am just laying in the bed. I finally drifted off until 7:30 this morning. Morning came way to early for me.

I called the NICU this morning and Avery took her midnight feeding but at 6am she had 10cc left. We were told that they couldn't finish feeding her because a c-section baby came in and all the nurses had to work on that baby. I asked if the Dr. had put her on every feed as a bottle feed. She told me he hadn't. So I asked for her to see if he would do that and to call me. I was shocked because he called me back within 5 minutes. He said that she takes at least 30cc but because the past few feedings she didn't take it all that he wasn't putting her on every feed. I didn't want to point out to him that it wasn't her fault that she didn't finish the last 10cc of the 6am feed.

He looked over her weight (which is almost 5lbs now! I can't believe it!) and he said if it's okay with me he's going to do the sink or swim approach. They are taking her tube out of her nose. They are going to feed her when she lets them know she's hungry and if she doesn't then she'll have to eat every 4 hours. If she doesn't take at least 30cc each feeding then back on the tube. I told them that I liked this idea. It gives her a chance to shine. If she can't do it at least I'll know she can't and that she's not ready. For some reason I think she'll do really well. I'm praying she does so she can come home. The Dr. on duty this week isn't as agressive and as trusting of Avery as Dr. Ladd was. I miss her.

So I'm going up there later today. Hopefully she will eat while I'm there. Come on Avery you can do it! Eat the 30cc or more each feed and you can come home! I'm pulling for you girl!