Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse. I was wrong. I can't remember if I blogged about Lee's wreck a few weeks back. We got the estimate and it's a little over $3k but would just cost us the deductible. Well it got worse. Lee was in a horrible wreck on Saturday. It was the front of his car but it was not his fault.

The guy driving was an idiot and wasn't paying attention and couldn't slow down in time. He pulled in the median but decided he could make back into the lane. Oh no, he ended up sideways and Lee collided with him. He was driving the car home from the dealer and apparently his stepdad bought him the car and he's 31 years old and he lives at home w/ his wife AND HE WAS DRIVING WITH A SUSPENDED LICENSE!!! I'm just furious over the entire thing b/c he admitted fault and the trooper cited him for careless driving and driving w/ a suspended license and now his insurance company is saying it might not be his fault. Talk about a headache.

Lee went to the ER later Saturday and they did a full body x-ray. He's still in a lot of pain right now and he's been very nervous and odd acting. He's always been a little spastic but he's just acting so anxious all the time. He's going to our internist tomorrow and we'll see what they say. We saw an attorney today b/c we didn't know what to do b/c our insurance company told us to wait on the other one and things are just a mess.

I was finally feeling better about so many things and then bam! We're hit with this and my job stuff. It's not turning into a good month. Or maybe year. I think my office is going to shut down and then I have to fight my contract. Which I've been advised by an attorney to fight it if they do shut it down for the remainder of my salary on my contract. Yes, life is so fun. I'm just so freaking happy. And just when we set aside enough money to get a new washer/dryer or bedroom set I'm scared to death about money b/c of the wreck and my employment and when I fight them for my contract. Unemployment is only $1100 a month here and I've been looking for a while now and there are no jobs, I'm talking about even outside my line of work. So we're screwed.

I know this is unreasonable and not what we're going to do but I've thought about just giving up and filing for bankruptcy and letting the house go and just starting over from scratch. I just don't know what else to do. I just wish life was a big chalkboard and you could erase it when things get bad and start over.

Why Should I Expect Anything More?

I shouldn't. I sent out an email to some friends and family about the sharks that were in the beach in town on Monday. I get this emailed response from my sister-in-law.

"And to think jay & I were out on a sand bar this weekend, drinking beer. Sorry we didn’t have a chance to visit.--Macie"

Yes, they were in town and didn't visit us or call us. This is at least the 3rd time I know of that they've been down here and haven't seen the kids. She's seen Jackson on 2 Thanksgivings, 2 Christmases, 1 of his birthday and at the funeral. That's it. You would think she'd care more to see him and Mackenzie.

When she came down back when Jackson was an itty bitty thing I even offered to meet her and Jay so they could see Jackson. No, they were too busy drinking on the beach to want to see him. Her words not mine. Do you know she did end up coming by our house but do you know why? To pick up the keg-o-rator that Lee had. Yeah, I had already left the house to see Jana and then she calls trying to see if I can let her in the house. It just pisses me off.

Maybe she doesn't like kids. I know she doesn't want any. I can't tell you how relieved I was when she said to me that she and Jay would rather not take the kids if something happened to us because they had plans of retiring by xx age, etc. and kids would mess it up. I would come back from the dead to make sure she didn't raise my kids. She drinks way too much and I've always heard from Lee that she's an alcoholic and it might be so.

I guess more than anything I'm just mad because she never wants to take the time to see my precious babies. So screw her.