Monday, January 29, 2007

Date Night

Lee and I had a date night on Saturday. Jana watched the kids and we escaped into adult land. We had a very nice dinner at Ruths Chris and it was the best filet I've ever had. Oh my gosh! It was so freaking good. The steak almost melted in my mouth. Yes, it is pricey but worth every penny. We got all dressed up and were able to eat like adults. It was great. Although I do have to admit Lee probably made more of a mess on the table cloth than our kids do somestimes. We were going to go see The Departed at the movies but we didn't get out of dinner until 9:15 and the movie started at 8:30 so we had to 86 that idea. We went into Walmart instead and got a few items.

When we got home around 10:30 my Jackson was still up. I couldn't believe it. He was so excited to see us. Lee then started working on Jana's computer and he figured out that she needed more ram. We had an extra 1gb and Lee is such a sweetheart and put it in for her, ran spyware, defraged her computer and got it running. He finished around 12:30. I think Jana almost passed out while waiting for him to finish but it was worth it for her. Jackson and I were both so tired and we headed to bed around midnight. And you would think that after him being up so late he would've slept in. Nope. Isn't it great being a mom?

I've been sharing some of my bargain secrets with Audrey (Jana's co-worker) and I have been having a good time with it. She came to the office on Saturday and I went over everything w/ her, etc. and gave her coupons. We went and got some bargains and then I had to head out home. She went and got 10 rolls of free toliet paper (my kind of girl!!!) and more freebies. I'm off tomorrow to buy 25 4-packs of the free toliet paper. So I guess that means I'm not really buying it. Huh?

I've got free L'oreal HIP foundation, eyeshadow, lipsticks, etc. out of my bootie. I'll be listing a lot of it on ebay. I've made quite a bit of money lately w/ the sippy cups. We don't have a Costco here but pepople on my bargain board have been buying them for me and I've been selling them on ebay. I've also given away quite a few. I'm making a $8 profit on each set. I wish we had a Costco near us. If we did I'd buy every last single package they had. If anyone lives near a Costco and reads this I would seriously pay you to go there and buy me every single 4 pack of Playtex 9oz sippy cups in the Cars the Movie and Finding Nemo that they have. It's my bread and butter right now. I've also sold out so many more than I realized that I only have a few packs left for us.

I'm off to send out my FedEx items for work. Gotta run and tonight plan out my bargains (i.e. free items) for the week.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Pulling Me Hair Out

Oh my gosh! I'm ready to pull all of my hair out. I won't have any left. This week has been insane. I've been so busy and if only I didn't have to pick up the kids each night I know I'd be at work until at least 7. I still had hours of work to do. I have to say though that I got all of my packages for tomorrow except for one refinance and it's an easy deal and then the purchase closing. It's with a broker so I know I won't get my package until 2 hours AFTER it is suppose to close.

Mackenzie had her spend the night party tomorrow night. She is excited beyond words.

I'll be around to update later.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

La Da De Da

I have had such a busy week. It seems like I haven't slowed down lately. That means I am way behind in making my phone calls to everyone. I feel so badly that I haven't called Grandmother or spoken w/ her since Christmas. And even then I felt so bad that I know I wasn't good with conversation. I called her on Thursday and talked to her on the way to work. I enjoyed talking to her. She is moving into a retirement home in a few months and so I am going to go up and visit her before she moves and go through her things and see what she has that I would like. There are some sentimentel things that I would like to have. There are also some other items I am taking. I am the lucky receipient of her dishes. I am soooo excited as we haven't had any real dishes. Lee bought some after Christmas on clearance at WM for $6 a set so you know that they aren't the greatest quality. Her's also have the serving dishes, etc. I hope she enjoys where she is moving. The apartment is smaller than the other retirement place but all of her friends are at this one and it's on her side of town so people will come and visit her.

I called Avonelle on Friday on the way home for work. I haven't spoken with her in a while either. I know she reads my blogs and keeps up with me that way but it's nice to actually talk to her. I was going to call her on Saturday on the way to this customer appreciation breakfast my favorite realtor was having but I didn't quite make it to the phone.

Betty Cope, one of my favorite realtors, had her 10th annual customer appreciation breakfast at a hotel in Ft Walton. She really wanted me to attend and I wanted to be there, but it is such a long drive from my house and it started at 8. I got up and got ready and drove over there. I was actually going to be there at 8:10 a lot earlier than I told her. Well I go to the hotel and they tell me they don't have a breakfast for her. I'm thinking I'm at the right place but I go to the other hotel it could be at. Nope. So I go on Santa Rosa Blvd. and check out the other hotels. Nope. I call her office and they weren't sure. I go back to the 1st hotel and low and behold it was there. I couldn't believe they told me it wasn't the first time. I didn't get there until 8:50. I had to leave at 9:15 to pick up Mackenzie in Destin from her sleepover. I felt badly that I couldn't have stayed longer. I did get to visit w/ Katrina from Countrywide and sat w/ a couple that is refinancing their home and Betty referred to me. I also so the lady whose loan I closed on Friday and when I gave out our doorprize I drew her name. It was sorta funny.

I met Mackenzie and Olivia and her mom and sister for breakfast at the Donut Hole. Lee and Jackson also came. It was nice to sit and visit with them and Mackenzie had a great time. I was told how well behaved Mackenzie is and how sweet and good she was. This is what I always hear from everyone. Even Miss Kelly @ the after school program so I know she's telling the truth. I also got a phone call from her teacher at school to tell me how good she is doing and how great her handwriting and reading is. I was told whatever I am doing to ekep doing it. Honestly, it's all her. She reads anything she can get her hands on. I know when I was a kid I did the same thing but I don't know if I was this young when my love for reading began.

She brought home from school an American Heritage book she had finished using. She read that book to Jackson the entire way home and to school one day. I think it's great. Her handwriting has improved tremendously. I am just so proud of her. I am so glad that I bit the bullet and have sent her to private school for the past 2 years. If I hadn't of gotten her early entrance there she would be so bored in Kindergarten and would have been terribly bored and unchallenged last year if she was still in pre-k. I have a love for math and I am really good at it. I wonder if this will be one of her strong holds as well.

After we ate breakfast Lee took the kids home and I went to run errands before he had to go to work. I had bought a ton of deeply discounted items from Bath & Body Works online after Christmas. I ended up with 40 bottles of lotions, shower gels, bubble bath, body butter, etc. for about $120. In addition I also got 3 huge purses, 12 cute little purses/bags, 2 blue jean bags and a HUGe black bag that retails for $65, and 4 sets of travel size lotion, gel and spray. These were from their gift set sale from after Christmas. I didn't like all of the scents I had ordered but I ordered them b/c they were the ones on clearance. So I went to BBW to trade in the scents. I am crazy b/c last weekend I traded in 12 scents and yesterday I took in 22. I got a store credit and left with so much stuff. A lot of the items had been marked down even more in the store. I've posted a lot of the items on ebay. I'm keeping the bulk of the items, but what I can sell on ebay will pay for my purchases plus I have enough to last me for the next year and for gifts. I love my bargains.

Walgreens had their huggies diapers for $8 and I had $2 printable coupons. If you bought $20 in Kimberly Clarke products (which Huggies are) you can get a $10 rebate. So I spent $18 plus tax on the 3 packs and will get $10 GC for Walgreens. So essentially $8 for 3 packs of diapers. I did this deal 2 times and will use my address here and at work.

I'm bag in the swing (as of this week) for my couponing. It takes a lot of time but it saves me soooo much money. I'm back into the game. I'm really excited. I know it is stupid to some people but walking out of Publix with 10 boxes of Kellogg's Nutra Grain bars for $8.43 including tax is amazing. Also right now I can get 5 of the 32oz gatorades for $2 at Winn-Dixie. I can also get 10 boxes Quaker Oats granola bars for $9. Does anyone realize how great that is? How fun it is? How much money it saves? I also don't have to go to the store every week to buy the things we eat a lot of. I was getting boxes of Kellogg's cereal for .55 a few weeks back. I think I got 10 boxes. Juicy Juice this week for $1.25 a piece. Great. Just great!

I do need more storage space in my house. I don't have enough room for everything. I've converted the mud room to my dry storage for shampoos, etc. but I need more pantry space. One day I'll have to figure it all out.

If anyone who reads this wants me to make them a list of what the great sales are and coupon match up I will. Just send me items you use regularly and I can email you a customize match up for each week of the sales. I can also mail you coupons to use with the sales. I always have tons of extras. I doubt anyone will but it would be so much fun if they would. It would give me something to do.

It has been pouring down rain today. Yucky yucky yucky! Lee let me go back to sleep at 9:45 today and I slept until 1:15. I really needed that sleep. He went to work and then Jackson threw up all over himself and Mackenzie's beautiful rug. No one realized he did it until he wanted a diaper wipe. That's when I discovered throw up on him. Then he wanted wipes to take to her room and that's when I found it everywhere. It was so fun to clean up.

I'm going to finish my shopping list. I know it sounds boring to some but to me it's soooo much fun!

La Da De Da

I have had such a busy week. It seems like I haven't slowed down lately. That means I am way behind in making my phone calls to everyone. I feel so badly that I haven't called Grandmother or spoken w/ her since Christmas. And even then I felt so bad that I know I wasn't good with conversation. I called her on Thursday and talked to her on the way to work. I enjoyed talking to her. She is moving into a retirement home in a few months and so I am going to go up and visit her before she moves and go through her things and see what she has that I would like. There are some sentimentel things that I would like to have. There are also some other items I am taking. I am the lucky receipient of her dishes. I am soooo excited as we haven't had any real dishes. Lee bought some after Christmas on clearance at WM for $6 a set so you know that they aren't the greatest quality. Her's also have the serving dishes, etc. I hope she enjoys where she is moving. The apartment is smaller than the other retirement place but all of her friends are at this one and it's on her side of town so people will come and visit her.

I called Avonelle on Friday on the way home for work. I haven't spoken with her in a while either. I know she reads my blogs and keeps up with me that way but it's nice to actually talk to her. I was going to call her on Saturday on the way to this customer appreciation breakfast my favorite realtor was having but I didn't quite make it to the phone.

Betty Cope, one of my favorite realtors, had her 10th annual customer appreciation breakfast at a hotel in Ft Walton. She really wanted me to attend and I wanted to be there, but it is such a long drive from my house and it started at 8. I got up and got ready and drove over there. I was actually going to be there at 8:10 a lot earlier than I told her. Well I go to the hotel and they tell me they don't have a breakfast for her. I'm thinking I'm at the right place but I go to the other hotel it could be at. Nope. So I go on Santa Rosa Blvd. and check out the other hotels. Nope. I call her office and they weren't sure. I go back to the 1st hotel and low and behold it was there. I couldn't believe they told me it wasn't the first time. I didn't get there until 8:50. I had to leave at 9:15 to pick up Mackenzie in Destin from her sleepover. I felt badly that I couldn't have stayed longer. I did get to visit w/ Katrina from Countrywide and sat w/ a couple that is refinancing their home and Betty referred to me. I also so the lady whose loan I closed on Friday and when I gave out our doorprize I drew her name. It was sorta funny.

I met Mackenzie and Olivia and her mom and sister for breakfast at the Donut Hole. Lee and Jackson also came. It was nice to sit and visit with them and Mackenzie had a great time. I was told how well behaved Mackenzie is and how sweet and good she was. This is what I always hear from everyone. Even Miss Kelly @ the after school program so I know she's telling the truth. I also got a phone call from her teacher at school to tell me how good she is doing and how great her handwriting and reading is. I was told whatever I am doing to ekep doing it. Honestly, it's all her. She reads anything she can get her hands on. I know when I was a kid I did the same thing but I don't know if I was this young when my love for reading began.

She brought home from school an American Heritage book she had finished using. She read that book to Jackson the entire way home and to school one day. I think it's great. Her handwriting has improved tremendously. I am just so proud of her. I am so glad that I bit the bullet and have sent her to private school for the past 2 years. If I hadn't of gotten her early entrance there she would be so bored in Kindergarten and would have been terribly bored and unchallenged last year if she was still in pre-k. I have a love for math and I am really good at it. I wonder if this will be one of her strong holds as well.

After we ate breakfast Lee took the kids home and I went to run errands before he had to go to work. I had bought a ton of deeply discounted items from Bath & Body Works online after Christmas. I ended up with 40 bottles of lotions, shower gels, bubble bath, body butter, etc. for about $120. In addition I also got 3 huge purses, 12 cute little purses/bags, 2 blue jean bags and a HUGe black bag that retails for $65, and 4 sets of travel size lotion, gel and spray. These were from their gift set sale from after Christmas. I didn't like all of the scents I had ordered but I ordered them b/c they were the ones on clearance. So I went to BBW to trade in the scents. I am crazy b/c last weekend I traded in 12 scents and yesterday I took in 22. I got a store credit and left with so much stuff. A lot of the items had been marked down even more in the store. I've posted a lot of the items on ebay. I'm keeping the bulk of the items, but what I can sell on ebay will pay for my purchases plus I have enough to last me for the next year and for gifts. I love my bargains.

Walgreens had their huggies diapers for $8 and I had $2 printable coupons. If you bought $20 in Kimberly Clarke products (which Huggies are) you can get a $10 rebate. So I spent $18 plus tax on the 3 packs and will get $10 GC for Walgreens. So essentially $8 for 3 packs of diapers. I did this deal 2 times and will use my address here and at work.

I'm bag in the swing (as of this week) for my couponing. It takes a lot of time but it saves me soooo much money. I'm back into the game. I'm really excited. I know it is stupid to some people but walking out of Publix with 10 boxes of Kellogg's Nutra Grain bars for $8.43 including tax is amazing. Also right now I can get 5 of the 32oz gatorades for $2 at Winn-Dixie. I can also get 10 boxes Quaker Oats granola bars for $9. Does anyone realize how great that is? How fun it is? How much money it saves? I also don't have to go to the store every week to buy the things we eat a lot of. I was getting boxes of Kellogg's cereal for .55 a few weeks back. I think I got 10 boxes. Juicy Juice this week for $1.25 a piece. Great. Just great!

I do need more storage space in my house. I don't have enough room for everything. I've converted the mud room to my dry storage for shampoos, etc. but I need more pantry space. One day I'll have to figure it all out.

If anyone who reads this wants me to make them a list of what the great sales are and coupon match up I will. Just send me items you use regularly and I can email you a customize match up for each week of the sales. I can also mail you coupons to use with the sales. I always have tons of extras. I doubt anyone will but it would be so much fun if they would. It would give me something to do.

It has been pouring down rain today. Yucky yucky yucky! Lee let me go back to sleep at 9:45 today and I slept until 1:15. I really needed that sleep. He went to work and then Jackson threw up all over himself and Mackenzie's beautiful rug. No one realized he did it until he wanted a diaper wipe. That's when I discovered throw up on him. Then he wanted wipes to take to her room and that's when I found it everywhere. It was so fun to clean up.

I'm going to finish my shopping list. I know it sounds boring to some but to me it's soooo much fun!

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Oh My! Busy at Work!

I have been so slammed at work that it's not even funny. I can not begin to tell you how crazy it's been. I've got 3 closings tomorrow, one in FWB (25 mins from my office) and then one in Panama City (50 mins from my office in the opposite direction from FWB). Yeah, it's going to be a crazy day. I'm thankful for the business. I truly am. I love being crazy busy. I think it's great. It helps me accomplish so much more then when I am so-so busy. I seem to stay on track more than when I'm slow. I think we're going to hit 37 closings this month. 37 freaking closings. We had 9 last month. Yes, I think it's freaking great. We've gotten in 43 orders since the 1st and that's on top of the 34 we had last month. I'm soooooo happy!

Mackenzie is spending the night w/ Olivia from school tomorrow night. She is so excited she can hardly stand it. She is going home w/ them from after school care tomorrow and then they are going to the movies. I've got to be in FWB at 8am Saturday morning for one of my favorite realtors customer appreciation breakfast. Yes, that's almost an hour from my house but she really wants me there and it will be a good time to meet new clients. The bad thing is the lady who Kenzie is spending the night w/ wants us to meet for breakfast in SRB at the Donut Hole and I don't know what time yet and I've got to juggle it all. I could easily skip out on the breakfast that Betty is having but you know I don't want to do that. She's couting on me to be there.

Lee was off today but had to go in to work and have lunch w/ one of his wine/liquor reps and a big wig w/ one of the big liquor makers. His restaurant is the highest volume restaurant in the area. Last year they sold 12,xxx glasses of their medium priced wine. That right there is a profit of $69,xxx. I can't imagine. It's such a huge profit margin. Lee has done so many things in working w/ the wine reps and has negotiated such great prices and done more in the past 6 months then have been doen in the past 6 years at his store. I know they are so proud of him and he does such a great job. I think he is great at what he does.

Since Lee was off of work today he picked up the kids and I went and got my haircut and highlighted. It had been 2 1/2 months since I had a haircut and since October when I got my hair highlighted. She darkened it up a little bit but you know I'm thinking I'd like it to be lighter. Not as blonde as the girl did it the last time but just a little lighter. I think I'll go back tomorrow and get her to lighten it. Lee is off tomorrow too. We'll have a semi date night w/ just Jackson. He's not too much trouble.

Oh my goodness! Jackson is a mess. He woke up before me this morning and wanted me to get up. He told me "get up mommy, move...den...go... get up... now" and he's grabbing my arm making me get up. He's a mess. I'm telling you in the past few weeks he has been talking up a storm. Saying so many new words and communicating so much better. It's great! Oh and tonight when I got home I changed his diaper while he was asleep. Well he woke up and wanted me. I laid down with him and I didn't have my head on the pillow completely and he said "down mommy... night night" and then pushed my head down. Yes, he pushed my head down. Silly boy. He's getting bold.

I caught part of Oprah's interview w/ Shawn H., the boy who was abducted in MO 4 years ago. I just think the entire situation is so sad. I mean I know it sounds odd having a boy riding his bike, on the computer, phone, etc. and not calling for help but I can only imagine what happened to him in the beginning that scared him shitless and made it where he didn't want to and was scared to reach out. I mean no telling what they guy did to him and told him he'd do if he contacted anyone. And I'm fairly certain the freedom he had when he was found was not given to him in the beginning. I hope that the guy who abducted him is in prison for the rest of his life and he is abused in the same way that he abused the two little boys. I know that is harsh but I just think of it in the perspective if it happened to one of my kids I'd want the worst punishment for them.

I've always said to certain people I already know what I'd do to anyone who ever hurt my children. I know this sounds sadistic and harsh but you know when someone hurts your babies you want the worst. I'd find the person who hurt my family and then I'd bring them to my home and tie them to a bed. Stretch their legs as far as they'd go without him dying from the pain. Then I'd take little razor blades and cut litte slices all over his arms and legs and his stomach and sides of his face. I'd think take alcohol and dribble it in all of the cuts. Okay, that's all I'm going to say for now but let me tell you I'd make him suffer. For a very very long time.

I'm off to eat my bowl of ice cream and then to bed. I've had a long day and it's almost 11. I need some beauty rest before my crazy busy day.

Friday, January 12, 2007

It's Friday It's Friday

Can you believe I forgot that today is Friday? I was on the phone with an insurance agent and she mentioned it being Friday and I had totally forgotten. Last night Jana called me at 9:30 and told me that she was at work and her car wouldn't start. So being the wonderful friend I am I drove an hour away to FWB and picked her up and took her home. I also picked her up this morning and took her to work. You know she was very appreciative and whatnot but the fact of the matter is she would have done this for me in a heartbeat and has done so many other things for me. That's what real friends do for each other.

Mackenzie got her report card earlier this week. She got all S's and a 99,96 and 97 in her graded subjects. I am so proud of her. She does such a good job and is so sweet. She is student of the week this week and got to take something for show and tell. She chose her glo bear she got from Brad for Christmas. It has this wand and if you push it the bear will change colors. It's a pretty neat bear to tell you the truth.

Lee came into Destin yesterday (he was off) and we went and had lunch together. We then went into Target and *gasp* the toys went 75% off that morning. I had totally forgotten about it. It was a wonderful surprise. Most of the items were already cleared off the shelf but we got some good things. Most of them I am going to resell on ebay. Not going to make a huge profit margin but I'll probably make $350 or so and I spent about $150. Not a bad deal I guess. It takes a little work but it's free money. And I got to keep some of the things I bought too.

I am so tired and ready to go home. My wonderful friend came to visit both me and Jana yesterday and we are both tired. That explains why I wanted meat yesterday. A big hamburger from McGuire's that I could barely eat half of it but it was good. I'm ready to pick up the kids and take a nap. A long long nap. Too bad Lee has to work tonight. He went in at 2 b/c there was suppose to be a party of 75 but they cancelled and there are 2 other closing managers so he should be ducking out at 7 or so. I'll be glad to see him at home.

He found this amazing new website that has tons and tons of movies and documentaries on it that you can watch. Yes, movies that are still in the movie theaters and you don't even have to download them. You just watch them from the website. He's seen We Are Marshall, The Museum and a couple of documentaries that I quite honestly found boring. I'm going to be checking it out this weekend and hopefully can finally see You Me and Dupree.

I don't know what our plan are for this weekend. I guess I'm going to relax and try to take it easy. I don't know how feasible that is considering my two little ones. I am so blessed to have the husband I have my my two precious children. I don't know what I do without any of them. They are my life. They make me smile when I'm sad and make me laugh when they're being the silly kids they are. I just love them so much. I just want to squeeze them so hard sometimes.

I know I shouldn't let Jackson sleep with us but you know he's not going to be this small forever and be there for me to snuggle with him. He's my last one and I want to savor every moment of him. He's my little snuggle bear. Mackenzie is the one that creeps into the bed in the middle of the night and gets next to me so I'm squished between her and Jackson. This morning I found her with a 1/2 foot of room and me trying to shrink into the size of a baby to fit. Man how I love them!

Well I just got my final package. I'm off to work it up and UPS it out tonight. We got in a total of... drumroll please... 21 orders this week. Thank you thank you. I know I'm amazing. I closed 8 this week, 5 the week before and have 10 already for next week. Should be a fun ride. But I shouldn't forget that I make a killing on each deal. Yes, I should be thankful for what I have.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

I've finally got some good news on the job front. I can't remember if I wrote this before or not but I decided not to take the other job. Too many reasons why but the clincher was going over w/ the attorney whose job I was taking and she obiously hated working w/ the attorney. I could get a feel for the same feelings after seeing his notes and memorandums, etc. Besides that his mom and his sister work in the office along w/ just one other. Yeah, I don't think it's a good fit for me.

On a positive note though I got my salary back, cell phone reimbursement and bonuses! I was really po'd on Monday when I emailed B., my regional manager, about my bonuses for December and I wanted to make sure they'd show up on my Jan. 15th paycheck. He emailed me back saying he didn't know what I was talking about and that I only get paid xx.xx per file that closes that I brought in. Oh no, I don't think so. I ofcourse still had the email he had sent me when he cut my salary and confirming the bonus structure but I didn't want to send it to him just yet. I responded back that I've never been paid based on what I bring in but paid on everything that closes. In addition you promised me xxxxx. I didn't hear back so I fwd him the email he sent to me w/ the terms of my salary that he changed. Of course I got a response back how he forgot and thanking me for keeping that email. Whatever buddy. You were going to try to get out of paying.

Anyhoo I called our B.O., our marketer, in the meantime to get his advice on what he would do in my situation. He knows how upset I've been, etc. After everything was already resolved w/ the bonuses he called B. and told him how great I am and he can't work w/out me and that all the clients rave about me, etc. Then he called J., the owner of the company, and told him the same thing and I guess lead in to how I've not been happy w/ things. So J. called me yesterday and I was very honest w/ him. I told him I didn't trust the company, etc. and didn't believe one word that B. ever says. To make a long story short K., the president of the company, is coming down in 2 weeks (yeah, they all forgot to tell me before now) and they are opening offices in Biloxi-Mobile and up through Panama City. They want me to be the regional operations manager for them since that is my strong hold. I didn't expect that at all, well I didn't expect them to be opening up those offices. I'll handle the panhandle offices.

Not to pat myself on the back but J. said it and so will I. I am great at managing and leading offices and helping to get offices off of the ground. I know it will be a tough task but a good one. I've also been told that I'm doing way more than one person should ever have to handle alone and that I'm doing great at it. I am though having to use another office to help me out. It's not easy turning things over but I am sending what I know I need to for their help.

Business is freaking out of control. It's the most insane thing I've ever seen. I've gotten in 24 orders in 7 days and 35 orders last month. Yeah, just a little crazy. I know I can do it though. It's just a matter of having my sanity left.

Totally not work related... I am in a quandry. I can't go into detail and I won't but I've got a lot on my mind. Something has hurt me deeply and I honestly don't know how to convey it. I feel sick to my stomach. I seriously want to throw up. Tears have been shed and I can't vocalize it, not to anyone. I don't know if it can be fixed. I don't know what to do. Do we ever really know what's right?

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Blah Weekend

I haven't had the most exciting weekend but that can be a good thing I guess. I just hate it when I don't feel as if I have accomplished anything. Yesterday Lee was off and he got up early and went to PC to p/u our computer from FedEx. We had sent in our old laptop for some repairs. It looks better than ever! Lee and Jackson got back around 10:30 and Lee was willing to go places w/ me but honestly I didn't feel like going anywhere. I finally got the want to and went to the grocery store last night. Man oh man. I hadn't been in ages and boy did I get a lot. My buggy was over flowing and I have no idea how in the world I fit it back in the car. Yes, I have a rather large car but the back was filled w/ some things and the front was filled with 2 huge packs of paper towels I got on sale. What was even more fun was coming in and not only putting it all up but cleaning out the pantry in the meantime. Loads of fun.

The weather has been so funky this week. On Thursday it was so humid and muggy and the fog was so low that I could walk outside and right into it. It was just miserable. Then Friday morning I wake up and check the weather and I see there are tornados in Alabama and a horrible storm coming through. Fortunately we didn't have the bad weather but it must've hit at some point b/c the power was out for a good 3-5 miles along the main hwy here in town. All of the traffic lights were out. I took Kenzie to school and she had no power. Candy didn't have power either. My office didn't have power for about 30 mins. I actually sat in my car until the power came on b/c it had started pouring down rain and I had to keep my cell phone in the charge since it was dying.

Work has been looking up. We got in a total of 14 orders last week AND we had gotten 35 orders last month. I've already got 13 set up to close or to that have already closed. Things have really turned around. I am glad things are better but even though it has turned around I don't want to take back what I said earlier about our wonderful marketer. (there was sarcasm)

Can I tell you just how spoiled my children are? It's disgusting to see how many toys and electronics each of them have. Jackson is only 2 and it makes me want to puke when I look into his room and see all he has. And Mackenzie. The child has a 25" TV, dvd player (she's on her 3rd), VCR, computer, Leapster, Dream Sketcher, digital cable... that's not even having me list every toy/thing imaginable. She's got a trampoline, skooter, bike... I could go on and on. It's just insane. The one thing in my defense is Jackson's birthday is so close to Christmas that he gets it all within one week. It wouldn't be fair not to treat him to the same birthday that any other kid just because of when it falls. Mackenzie's is fairly close to Christmas too. We don't typically buy them toys every week or month but they do have quite a bit. So the next time i think that they don't have enough or are lacking anything someone shoot me.

Wow... this has been full of useless ramblings. Boring boring.

Bad Mothers and Bad Neighbors

Words cannot describe how much I detest my neighbor that I have, along w/ others on our street, have dubbed the White Trash lady/house. She is cosntantly dragging her 2 youngest children in the house while they are screaming and she is constantly screaming at them so loud that we can hear it. It's just horrible and trashy. She's a single mother (and nothing against single parents) and has 4 children with 3 different men and she doesn't even have custody of her oldest son and just got her next to oldest back.

I have made it clear that Mackenzie is not suppose to knock on their door and ask her kids to play b/c the girl just turned 4 and the little boy just turned 2. They are not age appropriate for playing. She has done very well and doesn't go over there. Well yesterday I was inside and Mackenzie's friend Olivia came in the house and said that Mackenzie wanted me. I go over there and find out that the little girl and boy are in the yard and street playing and the little girl says that her mommy isn't home (and her car was gone) and they were left by themselves. The front door is opening and there isnt' a soul around. I ask her again and she says that her mommy got mad b/c Dean (the 2 year old) spilled chocolate milk and then her mommy left.

Now this is coming from a 4 year old and I understand that they don't always say things that happen or quite factually. But it is clear by me yelling into the house that no one is home. So I called the sherrif's office. I didn't know what else to do. I mean these kids are running around outside unsupervised and are only 4 and 2. The sherrifs come and talk to the little girl and she confirms to them what she said to me. They go in the house and don't find anyone but come back and ask the little girl what who's bedrooms are whose. Apparently 2 of the bedroom doors are locked. She says that one of the doors belongs to her 16 year old brother.

The sherrifs go back in and beat on the door and the no one answers it so they unlock the door, not sure how but they did. Guess what they find? The 16 year old boy who has long hit pink hair and a Godsmack shirt on. They talk to him for a bit inside and then come out. The sherrif is asking him if he knows where his mom is, he says no, they ask do you know how to reach her, he says no, they ask do you know where she might have gone, he says no, then they finally ask if she has a cell phone and the boys says yes. The sherrif exclaims "finally, we're getting somewhere". The boy was so rude and disrespectful. Okay, so I was wrong, there was someone home, but there wasn't anyone supervising the kids. The boy was upstairs in a locked room and didn't even answer the sherrif much less his little brother and sister.

The sherrifs tell him that the little sister told them that they were home by themselves. The brother gave her the evilest look I've ever seen. I am so scared about what he may have done to the kids. The sherrifs couldn't do anything b/c there was a 16 year old at home. They had him call his mom, etc. and after that I don't know what happened.

So last night I go over to her house so I could tell her that I was the one that called and why I did what I did. So she could get the entire story. She was so rude and such a bitch to me. She barely opened the door and just kept saying over me, "i knew it was you who called, i knew it was you". I told her it's b/c the little girl was crying outside that she wanted her mommy and that no one was at home. I also found out later Kenzie had gone inside to see if anyone was there and even she hadn't found anyone. I told a small fib and told her that I had knocked on her door and rang the doorbell b/c she went off on me about not trying hard enough to find out who was there. Which trust me, if it took the sherrifs breaking into his room then me knocking wouldn't have done anything.

I told her that I didn't know what to do but her kids were running around outside and in the street and they kept crying and saying they were home alone. I did what I thought was best, especially as a parent. She kept making smartass remarks and I can tell she hates me. You know I did what was the best thing to do. I would hope if my kids were in that situation that someone would call someone for me (although I'd never ever do that). She said she was going to deal w/ her oldest son but heck, he even admitted to the sherrifs that he didn't know she had left.

I did what I thought was right and I do stand by what I did. I just hate that she's such a lowlife white trash lady that she doesn't care enough about her kids to make sure they are taken care of. Oh yeah and she made a comment about "well if the 6 and 7 year olds didn't come knocking on my door to play w/ my 4 year old when they wouldn't even watch over her then she wouldn't go outside". I realized later she was accussing Kenzie and olivia of knocking on her door to entice the kids out. I can assure you that this is not the case. I grilled Kenzie and she said she didn't go over there and she is always honest w/ me and on top of that Kenzie only goes to see if her friends can play that are home and if the girls mom's car was gone why would she do it in the first place?

I'm so frustrated! I'm stuck living by this lady who hates my guts. I'm sorry I made her mad. I really am but I was just looking out for her kids.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Oklaohoma

Honestly I don't feel like typing out the 2nd part to my wonderful OK trip. Wait... I might be able to get it out. Although I don't know why I care b/c it's not like it's anything that interests anyone.

So we're in the lovely town of Holdenville and Leigh and I are staying w/ a fairly strange family and we have a rooster alarm clock. It's just wonderful. That Sunday we did our thing at the church and we made friends w/ this guy and some of the girls and I can't for the life of me remember their names. It's a neat little town b/c you can pretty much walk to everything. During lunch at the h/s everyone can walk home or eat somewhere, it's really cool. We had some party at someones house and got to meet all of the other youth.

Two of our friends were staying w/ a couple who lived across the street from where we were. Their host family were awesome! I digress... so we get home from the party Sunday night and Elise is on the phone w/ her boyfriend who lives on the other side of the tracks (both literally and figuratively) and he's freaking out b/c he thinks someone is breaking into his house. Yes, he doesn't call 911 (which seriously had just been put in a few weeks before) or his mom but his freaking girl friend who can't do anything for him. It was just very odd. On top of that she played her gameboy during the entire church service both times on Sunday. Strange indeed.

The week goes on and we befriend more of the local kids. Our two groups would hang out after they got out of school and we could all just walk around. Very neat. I believe it was the Wednesday night that we were running late for a function at the church. Leigh and I had both gotten very weird vibes from our host dad and he made both of us feel uncomfortable. I can't explain what it was but it didn't feel right. We were in the front of his truck and I'm stuck in the middle and please tell me why we couldn't have gone in the suburban? I'm sitting there and he seriously starts touching my leg and stroked it several times. Not the "oh, I'm sorry I was just changing gears" type of touch. He also had made comments during our stay and I can't remember what they were but Leigh and I were talking the other night and she remembers it too. Stuff that was subtle out of line things that make you uncomfortable. Leigh saw it and was freaked out and he kept saying weird things to us. We bolted out of the car and went into the church.

Our wonderful (and there is sarcasm dripping) youth minister, the lovely Reverend Doug Foulton, didn't buy it. We told him we didn't feel comfortable staying w/ them, etc. He just brushed us off. He always had disdain for me and yes, I was always outspoken and a little loud, but I NEVER did anything to him, especially at that age and he hadn't even been at the church a long time. So Leigh and I take our stuff and go stay with Tom (I just remembered the nice neighbors name) and his wife who had our two friends staying with them. They too knew something was up in that household and welcomed us in their house. We had so much fun and Shane the wonderful postman and the CB radios. Oh... what great memories.

By the way, my mom and Elizabeth were out of town during spring break and I thought my dad would be at home. I had tried calling him for several days and even called up at the church and Miss Linda told me he had gone out of town to join my mom. I tried calling him to tell him how I felt about our situation and to help me.

So Doug and Robbie (the old youth minister at our church but he still worked there) told Leigh and me that Friday night that we had to go back to the original host families house and spend the night. That we were out of line, blah blah blah. I remember standing on the front porch of the house we were at crying and them not listening to me or Leigh. For God's sake. We were 14 (15 in like 3 days) and didn't feel comfortable. Neither of them cared. They thought we were full of lies or what not.

We finally get home and I tell dad. I think deep down he was furious with Doug for not taking our word for anything. I can honestly say I have the deepest dislike for the man. I won't go into how deep my dislike is for him but it runs deep. I can't stand him. I will never forget this instance and how he made the both of us feel and we needed an adult there and we didn't get anything. Just wait til his little girl gets older and has the same situation. I'm sure his handling of something like that would be different.

Monday, January 01, 2007

Rooster Alarm Clocks

If I were to utter the words "rooster alarm clock" in front of certain people there would certainly be laughter, you know the kind where you spit your milk out. Every year I went with my youth group on choir tours and mission trips. The spring of '95 our youth group went to Holdenville, OK for our mission trip. It certainly turned out to be a big adventure.

We left Montgomery for the really really long drive and we were suppose to arrive on a Saturday night around 10ish. I can't remember what happened but we were delayed a long the way. I remember riding on the bus in the middle of freaking nowhere and I seem to remember fields and it was storming and we could see the lightening. Well, it was really late and we were all tired of being on the bus. I remember Jessica, Michael, Leigh, Dani and others playing 5 card stud. During the conversation I am sure we were quite loopy from the trip and we started talking about how backwards the people in OK would be. I mean we saw the corn or something fields and we just imagined these country bumpkins. Thinking back I can't believe we thought that (we did end up being semi right though) because we are from Alabama. Anyhoo...

During us joking on the place we were going I blurted out "I bet that have a rooster alarm clock". Don't ask me where that came from it was completely in the left field. We all ended up laughing hysterically about that and were joking on it. We finally get to OK at 2am and the people at the church were there to greet us. Each of us had a partner and each pair stayed with host families. Typically before we get to a church we have already been assigned families but for some reason this wasn't done. I remember sitting in a room in the church and someone from our church would call out a pair and then a host family would pick us. It kind of felt like we were being auctioned off. They called out Leigh and myself and told them I was the pk and something else about my crazy self. I remember this strange girl, Elise, started saying she wanted us to stay with her. It was kind of odd.

So we go home w/ Elise and her dad. We were given the front living room as our place for the week. It was really really late, almost 3 or 4am. The dad comes in and asks us if we need an alarm clock. We said yes and then he tells us he has a, and I'm sooooo not even kidding, ROOSTER ALARM CLOCK!!! Yes, a rooster alarm clock. It was shaped as a rooster and even cock-a-doodle-dooed. We died laughing. I'm sure they thought we were kind of rude or something, but yeah, we just died.

We woke up to the rooster and went to church. Oh my! This is what kills me. While we were trying to get to sleep the parents had some crazy love music playing and their wall was right next to us and we could hear it b/c it was so loud. I think we even heard some bumping in their room. It was just a little much. So at church the next morning some of the members of the youth group were saying how strange Elise and her family were. Yeah, they were so weird and having people confirm what we thought.

It even gets more strange but my fingers can't keep typing tonight. I'll have to finish this up later. Part 2 will have us "ride around this town and let the cops chase us around" and visit the postman. Stay tuned.