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Please get that song out of my head. Akon. He keeps going through my head over and over again. Either that or Fergie's "Fergalicious". I wish it'd stop. I have a few things I want to talk about today.
Al Sharpton and Strom Thurmond
Okay, I think it is the funniest thing I have heard in a really long time. It is hysterical that the Reverand and yes, I mean the reverant Al Sharpton, may very possibly be related to Strom Thurmond. Yes, the wonderful Sharpton's family a few generations back was traced back to Strom Thurmond as his or his families slaves. I am not for slavery at all but I think it's great that his family was the Thurmond's family's bitch. Yes, I know I don't curse that often on here but I felt in necessary. This man gets up and sprews racist things but no, it's not the white man beating up the black man with words, it's the black man spewing against the white man. So Al Sharpton take that.
Britney Spears
You are a skanky little snot. You have two young children and you need to begin behaving like a responsible parent. Put on some panties and put down the coke and booze and whatever else you're shoving down your throat or up your nose. Have you finally succumbed to the white trash that you were married to? At this point I seriously seem to think he might be better off with your boys. Get a grip and get help. Otherwise your boys are going to be scarred for life and you're going to end up either a washed up nasty whore or dead in some hotel room like Anna Nicole Smith.
Anna Nicole Smith
Okay, how can I pass up an opportunity to jump on the bandwagon like everyone else. Anna Nicole had it coming to her. Obviously she has had a drug problem for many many years and she should have been responsible enough to get help especially once she found out she was pregnant. There is no mistakening the fact she was high on some type of drug whether it was prescription or not on the video whiel she was 8 months pregnant. She isn't good enough to be a mom. The tragic part in all of this is Dannilynn. This is an innocent little girl who has unfortunately been born into a world of dirty nasty liars who are all around her. Howard K. Stern is nothing but a leech. I watch the train wreck on TV when she had her reality series. It is so obvious to anyone who watches the show how much he wanted to "be with her" and he'd put up w/ her verbal rants, etc. and it is just pathetic. I don't know if it's because he truly fell in love with her or she became his obsession or she became his meal ticket. I am sure it changed over time and his feelins weren't what they were in the beginning. He should just be ashamed of himself.
Larry Birkhead. Is he any better to raise the baby? I don't know and does anyone really know? I don't think his motivies are for money. When he began filing his paperwork Anna was still alive.
Enough
Okay, enough of my crazy rants. I'm exhausted tonight. Lee went in to work yesterday at 9am and didn't get home until 3am. I know he needs to do this to get a feel for the place but I just worry about his well being and him wearing himself out. I don't know how long he can keep this up. I stayed up until 1am waiting for him. I should've known he wouldn't be until really late but I couldn't help it. I wanted to hear how things went.
I felt semi-depressed yesterday after talking to him. I was on the way home with the kids and he was telling me somethings about his day and all in all he's not sure he made a good choice in changing jobs. I just felt down. It reminds me of when we lived in Niceville and he would drive to P'cola every day and work at least 14 hour days. He did this while I was pregnant. It was so sad. He was so exhausted and worn out. He was busting his butt to prove himeself and the fact he had a really butthole of a boss.
So with me feeling down I called my Jana. I asked her if she wanted to go have dinner. Not that we really needed to spend any money but it'd make me feel better. We met at Osaka hibachi. Now Lee would just die if he knew we went because he loves going there and b/c it's so expensive. The kids were soooo good there! We had such a great time, all 4 of us did. We sat next to the nicest older couple who were on vacation down here for a month. They were so nice. Of course everyone looked at Jackson and watched his reactions. He had this deer caught in headlight looks. He did not like the fire too much. He did love the rice. And my Mackenzie loves the rice and chicken. She was a riot. She kept having one liners for the chef. He was a hoot too. She had everyone in stitches. so a ton of money later I felt a lot better. I was full and not so depressed. I had a good time with Jana and the kids were so good.
I am going to lie down now. I'm exhausted and need to get some sleep. So long.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Sunday, February 25, 2007
I Am a Sick Sick Sick Person
Did I really have to reiterate how sick I am in the head? Well I am. I certainly proved it more so than ever yesterday. Okay so everyone should know by now how I am gaga for my bargain deals. Well... Kmart is no longer carrying the Pampers Mega packs and they are on clearance for $1.50. Huggies Pull Ups are $1.00 and the Overnights are 1.00 too. Yeah. How cheap is that? Well I also had about 20 coupons total so if I could find them then they'd be free. Oh... I couldn't use my Huggies coupons b/c they were for more than the diapers themselves. I went to the FWB and Niceville stores and only found like 4 packs. Thursday night I went to PC to the 3 stores and found, oh I can't remember now, but maybe 15ish? So yesterday I went to Pensacola and hit the 4 Kmarts. Paydirt. I scored appx. 50 packages total of Pampers and Huggies. Now here is the kicker. With each Huggies purchase I got a free bath wash/lotion and w/ the Pampers I got a free tub of diaper wipes. Yeah, amazing!
I went to my CVS late last night to pick up the wipes they bought for me and bath lotion and bath wash. I picked up 50 tubs of wipes, 20 bath lotion, 25 bath wash, a bunch of 90% off Valentines stickers, lollipops, chocolate hearts for Jackson, shampoo, bath soap for $21.xx. Yeah, I'm amazing. I know. Let me bow.
I'm going to help clean up the house now. Just wanted to gloat over my finds. :-)
I went to my CVS late last night to pick up the wipes they bought for me and bath lotion and bath wash. I picked up 50 tubs of wipes, 20 bath lotion, 25 bath wash, a bunch of 90% off Valentines stickers, lollipops, chocolate hearts for Jackson, shampoo, bath soap for $21.xx. Yeah, I'm amazing. I know. Let me bow.
I'm going to help clean up the house now. Just wanted to gloat over my finds. :-)
Friday, February 23, 2007
**Special Announcement**
I am very proud to say that I am married to the new General Manager of the Old Florida Fish House in Seagrove Beach. Yes, my wonderful and smart and competent hubby has been offered and accepted a new job as GM. I am so proud of him and thrilled for him. He has worked so hard at the Back Porch and has achieved and accomplished so much and it has finally paid off.
Lee has become really good friends with one of the district managers of one of the liquor companies he works with and Jeffrey knows everyone in the business b/c he deals with them every day. He could tell that Lee is smart and knows his stuff, after all being in the business for 14 years will certainly teach you a few things. Lee had become unhappy with The Back Porch b/c they were doing crazy stuff to other managers at other stores and things weren't making him happy.
Jeffrey gave Lee some contacts for who was hiring, etc. and where he took the job today was one of them. Lee also sent out his resume to restaurant recruiters and the response he got was amazing. I can tell you that it certainly made him feel good about himself and as a manager. He got a phone call from Beach Walk Cafe which is a really exclusive place but there is no way he'd go there. The owner/chef is a suspected coke head (I have to word it carefully) and it would be a volatile place to work but it made him feel really good to get a phone call.
So anyway our life is going to change. Good news #1 - He'll be off every Sunday! Yippee!!!! Good news #2 - They pay for our entire insurance premium!!!! Good news #3 - He got a substantial raise!!!!!!!
Bottom line is I knew he was better than just an assistant manager. This is his time to shine and show 'em what he's made out of. He is nervous though. He keeps asking me "What if I just can't cut it?". I know he'll be great. He hung out w/ the assistant managers this afternoon and said he likes them a lot. Ohhhh... guess who one of the silent owners is? Tommy Tubberville. Guess who the Grandfather is of one of the assistant managers? Bobby Bowden. So freaking funny.
We're going to eat dinner there tomorrow night and he's not going to tell them who he is when we go. The assistant managers know his plan so they won't spoil it. He wants to dine there annonymously so he can get a feel for how the servers, etc. work and handle things before going to the restaurant.
Man this work week has been crazy. I went to Panama City on Wednesday to take some things to the Clerk of Court for recording. Then I went over to the Countrywide office to finally meet the girls I talk to all the time. It was really good to put a face with a voice. They all suck though b/c they're all petite and skinny. :-) No, seriously it was nice to see them all.
Jana had court in PC so I went to see her at court. It was so weird walking in the middle of it. She was sitting behind the attorneys. Oh and Jana handles child support cases. Let's see what I saw... the gay man with HIV who has a kid (not sure how old the kid is though and how it was conceived) and was in prision for 2 years and couldn't pay his child support then and is 2 months behind right now. Oh and he was in prision for 4 DUI's. Wanna know the reason he's behind right now? He got a staph infection in December and got really really sick. He's been getting IV's daily w/ meds and hasn't been able to work. When he sat down in front of Jana the first time that morning he had huge gnash on his hand from the infection. So freaking nasty!
Let's see... then there was the guy who is 24 and when he came in earlier in the morning to meet w/ Jana and those rep'ing the custodial parents/dept. of revenue he was arrested b/c of an outstanding warrant. When he was brought in before the hearing officer while I was there they brought him in from the jail in shackles around his legs. He sat down and the attorney starts stating his name, etc. and tries to get to how late he is and why he hasn't paid. This kid is so rude and I am not kidding, he's yelling at the attorney and hearing officer. He was $1100 behind on the support and filed his taxes earlier this month and the $850 he got back went straight to the CS but it takes a while to get through. He is sitting and yelling about how it was the first time he filed taxes in 5 years but he only did it because he wanted his kid to get his money and how he has 3 other kids to take care of. Crazy stuff. Ok...
So he is finished and gets carted back off. After he left and they took a recess it came out what he was arrested for. Attempted murder or something to that effect. Oh and the guy said he is a "licensed security guard". Please don't let him guard any place I go near. Apparently it was for domestic violence too. I'll have to go see if I can find him online. Someone had also bailed him out. $30,000 bail and it was done so quickly and white trash dude doesn't have the money to pay $170 a month to his daughter. Sad. Oh and his ex-wife (I don't think she's the mama of this baby) has 5 warrants out for her arrested for child abuse. It's sad. Just sad. My heart breaks for these kids.
I am hoping to go back to court again some day when they have a bigger docket. I can't wait to go the day the dude with 18 or so kids comes in.
I'm really tired and I am going to head to bed. I've had a long long week and I'm just ready to crash. Night night.
Lee has become really good friends with one of the district managers of one of the liquor companies he works with and Jeffrey knows everyone in the business b/c he deals with them every day. He could tell that Lee is smart and knows his stuff, after all being in the business for 14 years will certainly teach you a few things. Lee had become unhappy with The Back Porch b/c they were doing crazy stuff to other managers at other stores and things weren't making him happy.
Jeffrey gave Lee some contacts for who was hiring, etc. and where he took the job today was one of them. Lee also sent out his resume to restaurant recruiters and the response he got was amazing. I can tell you that it certainly made him feel good about himself and as a manager. He got a phone call from Beach Walk Cafe which is a really exclusive place but there is no way he'd go there. The owner/chef is a suspected coke head (I have to word it carefully) and it would be a volatile place to work but it made him feel really good to get a phone call.
So anyway our life is going to change. Good news #1 - He'll be off every Sunday! Yippee!!!! Good news #2 - They pay for our entire insurance premium!!!! Good news #3 - He got a substantial raise!!!!!!!
Bottom line is I knew he was better than just an assistant manager. This is his time to shine and show 'em what he's made out of. He is nervous though. He keeps asking me "What if I just can't cut it?". I know he'll be great. He hung out w/ the assistant managers this afternoon and said he likes them a lot. Ohhhh... guess who one of the silent owners is? Tommy Tubberville. Guess who the Grandfather is of one of the assistant managers? Bobby Bowden. So freaking funny.
We're going to eat dinner there tomorrow night and he's not going to tell them who he is when we go. The assistant managers know his plan so they won't spoil it. He wants to dine there annonymously so he can get a feel for how the servers, etc. work and handle things before going to the restaurant.
Man this work week has been crazy. I went to Panama City on Wednesday to take some things to the Clerk of Court for recording. Then I went over to the Countrywide office to finally meet the girls I talk to all the time. It was really good to put a face with a voice. They all suck though b/c they're all petite and skinny. :-) No, seriously it was nice to see them all.
Jana had court in PC so I went to see her at court. It was so weird walking in the middle of it. She was sitting behind the attorneys. Oh and Jana handles child support cases. Let's see what I saw... the gay man with HIV who has a kid (not sure how old the kid is though and how it was conceived) and was in prision for 2 years and couldn't pay his child support then and is 2 months behind right now. Oh and he was in prision for 4 DUI's. Wanna know the reason he's behind right now? He got a staph infection in December and got really really sick. He's been getting IV's daily w/ meds and hasn't been able to work. When he sat down in front of Jana the first time that morning he had huge gnash on his hand from the infection. So freaking nasty!
Let's see... then there was the guy who is 24 and when he came in earlier in the morning to meet w/ Jana and those rep'ing the custodial parents/dept. of revenue he was arrested b/c of an outstanding warrant. When he was brought in before the hearing officer while I was there they brought him in from the jail in shackles around his legs. He sat down and the attorney starts stating his name, etc. and tries to get to how late he is and why he hasn't paid. This kid is so rude and I am not kidding, he's yelling at the attorney and hearing officer. He was $1100 behind on the support and filed his taxes earlier this month and the $850 he got back went straight to the CS but it takes a while to get through. He is sitting and yelling about how it was the first time he filed taxes in 5 years but he only did it because he wanted his kid to get his money and how he has 3 other kids to take care of. Crazy stuff. Ok...
So he is finished and gets carted back off. After he left and they took a recess it came out what he was arrested for. Attempted murder or something to that effect. Oh and the guy said he is a "licensed security guard". Please don't let him guard any place I go near. Apparently it was for domestic violence too. I'll have to go see if I can find him online. Someone had also bailed him out. $30,000 bail and it was done so quickly and white trash dude doesn't have the money to pay $170 a month to his daughter. Sad. Oh and his ex-wife (I don't think she's the mama of this baby) has 5 warrants out for her arrested for child abuse. It's sad. Just sad. My heart breaks for these kids.
I am hoping to go back to court again some day when they have a bigger docket. I can't wait to go the day the dude with 18 or so kids comes in.
I'm really tired and I am going to head to bed. I've had a long long week and I'm just ready to crash. Night night.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
How Many Tries...
does it take to write a post? I guess it's kind of like the Tootsie pop question, how many licks does it take to get to the middle. I wrote a post on Wednesday night and then when I tried to post it it didn't go through. Then I've started writing this several times over and of course I never was able to finish it and forgot to save it as a draft. So here I am writing the same thing over again for the umpteenth time. Here I go!
Mackenzie has been sick since last weekend. She stayed home on Monday and she seemed to be doing much better until she woke up on Tuesday. She said her throat still hurt really badly and her head hurt. It just so happened that Lee opened that morning so he couldn't stay at home with Mackenzie so she came with me to my office. I have to say she was amazing. She was so good and was quiet and watched her movies on the laptop and she colored. She was really good.
I took her to her appt. at 3:00 to see Dr. Mills. Her peds were all booked up so we saw the Dr. who works the immediate care part of the office. I really like him. He is my regular Dr. now. He's also from Toledo and is a huge OSU fan. Hmm... I wonder who else I know who loves OSU and is from Toledo? Anyhoo, while we were waiting for Dr. Mills I look at her tonsils and they are huge and swollen and had white pockets all over them. He came in and said that she had either tonsilitis or strep throat and an ear infection in her right ear. He said there is a slight chance that it is Mono but he didn't want to do the blook work unless the antibiotics didn't work. The reason he didn't do the throat culture on her is b/c the anitbiotics would work either way if it was strep or tonsilitis.
I am keeping my fingers crossed that it's not Mono. I don't think it is since she's feeling much better since being on the meds. The white pockets are gone. She's still swollen but other than that much better. She's a little tired every now and then but I think being out sick for a week and missing school for 4 days it's hard to get back in the swing of things.
Work this week has been much better. I've had my new help, Melissa, and she's good. She is having to be trained on all aspects of the business but she's doing the tidious stuff that I don't have time to do. We were suppose to have our approval with a major bank on Friday and if that finally went through then my office is going to be a whole lot busier. Oh yeah, to the point where a 3rd person will be needed. If/when this happens the 3rd person will have to know the business and know what she's doing.
I had a conference call with our FL manager and with my marketer. Bob and I are on the same page in a lot of ways. It's one of those love hate relationships. Well, he loves me all the time. He loves me because he tells me constantly that in all of the years of having his own company and working he has never had so many people consistantly tell him how much they like one person. It's hard for me to take compliments so I always blow him off. I told him Friday that he should know by now that everyone has been lying to him. One thing is I do pride myself on my work.
We have a major account with Countrywide and the people who work there I get along with so well. I guess it's b/c I know how to get everyone what they want/need and have a good time at the same time. I'm also a little wacky and my personality just brings smiles to everyone. I'm also a good person to do business with because when Katie was sick as a dog and Windie was too I sent them flowers. I make Bob bring them chocolate. The manager there has already tried to get me to come work for her if I quit my job. There is no way I'd do that in a million years b/c the mortgage business is just so hard and I've been there done that for 5 years and glad I'm out. If I was to ever do it though I'd definitely work for Countrywide. They seem to be the best of the best.
I've got a long weekend. Our offices are open on Monday but I'm taking off b/c everyone we do business with is closed and it's the only day for me to take time off. It'll give me a little more time with the kids too. I've got a to do list of things but I didn't quite get to do them yesterday. Things kinda went south yesterday afternoon. Our lives have been turned upside down once again and just when things finally got back on track. I don't want to go into details at this point but I swear we finally get things back to "normal" and then everything gets turned upside down again. It's so frustrating.
I've got a problem. It's a stupid problem but ever since watching the Grammy's and seeing Justin Timberlake perform and do an awesome job I've really taken an interest into his music. I don't want anyone giving me a hard time about it either since he was in a boy band. I think he'd really talented and ain't too hard on the eyes. I love the performance w/ Robin Troup who one the My Grammy Moment. I keep watching it on You Tube. Oh man, someone took the video that he did w/ Scarlett Johannson and made their own video to the song. She took clips from his prior videos and even matched up some of the words and then took clips from Britney's videos. It was so funny and of course in this girls version Britney's car blows up and she is killed like Scarlett was.
Oh and how about Britney shaving her head? That girl has some serious issues. I am really concerned aboutt her boys. She's constantly seen out partying and drinking and showing off her nether regions without panties on and where are the kids? With a nanny? Are they constantly with a nanny? When she's around is it just for a moment? I know so many rich people and celebrities don't really raise their kids. It's usually a nanny or caregiver but I feel so horrible for those kids. I know how much my kids enjoy me spending time with them that I'd hate to constantly shove them off on someone else.
Now don't get me wrong I'd love to have a babysitter for them sometimes but not all the time. I've only used Jana to sit for them and she's only done it 1 time in the past year or so for me and Lee to go out by ourselves. She's amazing though helping me with the kids and picking them up so I can work late when Lee is working late. If it wasn't for her I don't know what I'd do. She helps me so much. Jana is truly my best friend. We are both so crazy. We also will type the same things on IM at the same exact time and it'll be word for word. It's a little freaky. It just shows how in sync we are. We are both so different in personalities but alike in so many ways.
I know I posted this before but I want to thank everyone who sent in a donation to Mackenzie for her Jump Rope for Heart. Those who sent money were, Mom & Dad, Brad, Eileen & Bob, Neil & Laura and Grandmother Godfrey. Thank you! It is greatly appreciated and Mackenzie has been so excited with each donation. She even woke up this morning to remind me we have to turn it in on Friday.
Ohhhh... I cleaned my house all morning yesterday. It all started with a sink of dirty dishes and a dishwasher full of clean ones. I cleaned the kitchen and swept it all up. Then my wonderful Jackson decided to take a bag of Fruity Pebbles and pour them all of the hallway, den and his room. Yeah, it was great. While I was cleaning the kitchen Kenize vacuumed some of it up for me since she loves to vacuum. I then came and vacuumed his room and his hallway. So much fun. Then of couse I had to sweep the kitchen, vacuum the kitchen, and the den. Everything looked all nice and clean. Of course this morning everything is crazy messy again. It drives me nuts how I can clean everything up and bam! it's all messy again!!!
The kids are eating Fruity Pebbles with milk at the kitchen table. Apparently Jackson is making a mess while eating. Not too good. Kenzie keeps complaining about his mess. I'm off to go work it out.
Mackenzie has been sick since last weekend. She stayed home on Monday and she seemed to be doing much better until she woke up on Tuesday. She said her throat still hurt really badly and her head hurt. It just so happened that Lee opened that morning so he couldn't stay at home with Mackenzie so she came with me to my office. I have to say she was amazing. She was so good and was quiet and watched her movies on the laptop and she colored. She was really good.
I took her to her appt. at 3:00 to see Dr. Mills. Her peds were all booked up so we saw the Dr. who works the immediate care part of the office. I really like him. He is my regular Dr. now. He's also from Toledo and is a huge OSU fan. Hmm... I wonder who else I know who loves OSU and is from Toledo? Anyhoo, while we were waiting for Dr. Mills I look at her tonsils and they are huge and swollen and had white pockets all over them. He came in and said that she had either tonsilitis or strep throat and an ear infection in her right ear. He said there is a slight chance that it is Mono but he didn't want to do the blook work unless the antibiotics didn't work. The reason he didn't do the throat culture on her is b/c the anitbiotics would work either way if it was strep or tonsilitis.
I am keeping my fingers crossed that it's not Mono. I don't think it is since she's feeling much better since being on the meds. The white pockets are gone. She's still swollen but other than that much better. She's a little tired every now and then but I think being out sick for a week and missing school for 4 days it's hard to get back in the swing of things.
Work this week has been much better. I've had my new help, Melissa, and she's good. She is having to be trained on all aspects of the business but she's doing the tidious stuff that I don't have time to do. We were suppose to have our approval with a major bank on Friday and if that finally went through then my office is going to be a whole lot busier. Oh yeah, to the point where a 3rd person will be needed. If/when this happens the 3rd person will have to know the business and know what she's doing.
I had a conference call with our FL manager and with my marketer. Bob and I are on the same page in a lot of ways. It's one of those love hate relationships. Well, he loves me all the time. He loves me because he tells me constantly that in all of the years of having his own company and working he has never had so many people consistantly tell him how much they like one person. It's hard for me to take compliments so I always blow him off. I told him Friday that he should know by now that everyone has been lying to him. One thing is I do pride myself on my work.
We have a major account with Countrywide and the people who work there I get along with so well. I guess it's b/c I know how to get everyone what they want/need and have a good time at the same time. I'm also a little wacky and my personality just brings smiles to everyone. I'm also a good person to do business with because when Katie was sick as a dog and Windie was too I sent them flowers. I make Bob bring them chocolate. The manager there has already tried to get me to come work for her if I quit my job. There is no way I'd do that in a million years b/c the mortgage business is just so hard and I've been there done that for 5 years and glad I'm out. If I was to ever do it though I'd definitely work for Countrywide. They seem to be the best of the best.
I've got a long weekend. Our offices are open on Monday but I'm taking off b/c everyone we do business with is closed and it's the only day for me to take time off. It'll give me a little more time with the kids too. I've got a to do list of things but I didn't quite get to do them yesterday. Things kinda went south yesterday afternoon. Our lives have been turned upside down once again and just when things finally got back on track. I don't want to go into details at this point but I swear we finally get things back to "normal" and then everything gets turned upside down again. It's so frustrating.
I've got a problem. It's a stupid problem but ever since watching the Grammy's and seeing Justin Timberlake perform and do an awesome job I've really taken an interest into his music. I don't want anyone giving me a hard time about it either since he was in a boy band. I think he'd really talented and ain't too hard on the eyes. I love the performance w/ Robin Troup who one the My Grammy Moment. I keep watching it on You Tube. Oh man, someone took the video that he did w/ Scarlett Johannson and made their own video to the song. She took clips from his prior videos and even matched up some of the words and then took clips from Britney's videos. It was so funny and of course in this girls version Britney's car blows up and she is killed like Scarlett was.
Oh and how about Britney shaving her head? That girl has some serious issues. I am really concerned aboutt her boys. She's constantly seen out partying and drinking and showing off her nether regions without panties on and where are the kids? With a nanny? Are they constantly with a nanny? When she's around is it just for a moment? I know so many rich people and celebrities don't really raise their kids. It's usually a nanny or caregiver but I feel so horrible for those kids. I know how much my kids enjoy me spending time with them that I'd hate to constantly shove them off on someone else.
Now don't get me wrong I'd love to have a babysitter for them sometimes but not all the time. I've only used Jana to sit for them and she's only done it 1 time in the past year or so for me and Lee to go out by ourselves. She's amazing though helping me with the kids and picking them up so I can work late when Lee is working late. If it wasn't for her I don't know what I'd do. She helps me so much. Jana is truly my best friend. We are both so crazy. We also will type the same things on IM at the same exact time and it'll be word for word. It's a little freaky. It just shows how in sync we are. We are both so different in personalities but alike in so many ways.
I know I posted this before but I want to thank everyone who sent in a donation to Mackenzie for her Jump Rope for Heart. Those who sent money were, Mom & Dad, Brad, Eileen & Bob, Neil & Laura and Grandmother Godfrey. Thank you! It is greatly appreciated and Mackenzie has been so excited with each donation. She even woke up this morning to remind me we have to turn it in on Friday.
Ohhhh... I cleaned my house all morning yesterday. It all started with a sink of dirty dishes and a dishwasher full of clean ones. I cleaned the kitchen and swept it all up. Then my wonderful Jackson decided to take a bag of Fruity Pebbles and pour them all of the hallway, den and his room. Yeah, it was great. While I was cleaning the kitchen Kenize vacuumed some of it up for me since she loves to vacuum. I then came and vacuumed his room and his hallway. So much fun. Then of couse I had to sweep the kitchen, vacuum the kitchen, and the den. Everything looked all nice and clean. Of course this morning everything is crazy messy again. It drives me nuts how I can clean everything up and bam! it's all messy again!!!
The kids are eating Fruity Pebbles with milk at the kitchen table. Apparently Jackson is making a mess while eating. Not too good. Kenzie keeps complaining about his mess. I'm off to go work it out.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
The Grammy's
I'm watching the Grammy's right now and I have to admit I like the song "Not Ready to Make Nice" by the Dixie Chicks even though they are liberals who in my opinion have taken things to far in the past but I digress. Natalie Maines hair part is combed over so freaking far. It looks hideous. She also has this white dress on w/ ruggles at the bottom or something and it poofs out and it just looks tacky.
I did enjoy the opening act of the Police. I really enjoy their music although I am sure most of it was written before I was born. hahaha
Oh my gosh! MTV debuted Justin Timberlake's new video "What Goes Around Comes Around" and let me just say it was hot! Scarlett Johannsan stared in it and I have to say it was more like a short film than a music video. I guess at just a little over 8 mins it was long. I bet he wrote that song for and it was directed towards Britney. Oh gosh, it was really good, well, kind of corny I guess but overall good. And this comes from someone who only watches videos on Sat & Sun mornings when the kids wake me up at the crack of dawn and Vh1's Top 20 Count Down is on.
The kids got me up at 6:45 this morning. Mackenzie is not feeling well and she's asleep right now. I've been giving her medicine since she woke up a 3:45 crying because her throat and head hurt. ---- Ok.... Prince or the artist formerly known as Prince or whatever he is called these days just introudced Beyonce. How do people just adore him? He's what, 5 feet tall? He had this tacky white jumpsuit on (what's up w/ white tonight?) and had his chest hair all hanging out of it. Ewwww... gross!!!-------- So she hasn't felt well tonight.
I went to work at 10 and got home around 2. I have so much to do it's not even funny. Tomorrow morning the power company is switching our power lines to another pole and we'll be w/out power until at least 9:30. I am not looking forward to it b/c I know I'm going to have so much to do.
Well I'm off to give Jackson a cookie! He keep telling me to get up and give him a cookie. If only you could hear the cutie patootie!
I did enjoy the opening act of the Police. I really enjoy their music although I am sure most of it was written before I was born. hahaha
Oh my gosh! MTV debuted Justin Timberlake's new video "What Goes Around Comes Around" and let me just say it was hot! Scarlett Johannsan stared in it and I have to say it was more like a short film than a music video. I guess at just a little over 8 mins it was long. I bet he wrote that song for and it was directed towards Britney. Oh gosh, it was really good, well, kind of corny I guess but overall good. And this comes from someone who only watches videos on Sat & Sun mornings when the kids wake me up at the crack of dawn and Vh1's Top 20 Count Down is on.
The kids got me up at 6:45 this morning. Mackenzie is not feeling well and she's asleep right now. I've been giving her medicine since she woke up a 3:45 crying because her throat and head hurt. ---- Ok.... Prince or the artist formerly known as Prince or whatever he is called these days just introudced Beyonce. How do people just adore him? He's what, 5 feet tall? He had this tacky white jumpsuit on (what's up w/ white tonight?) and had his chest hair all hanging out of it. Ewwww... gross!!!-------- So she hasn't felt well tonight.
I went to work at 10 and got home around 2. I have so much to do it's not even funny. Tomorrow morning the power company is switching our power lines to another pole and we'll be w/out power until at least 9:30. I am not looking forward to it b/c I know I'm going to have so much to do.
Well I'm off to give Jackson a cookie! He keep telling me to get up and give him a cookie. If only you could hear the cutie patootie!
Friday, February 09, 2007
Snoring Snoring Snoring
I would be in bed asleep right now but Lee is snoring up a storm. Jackson has croup I think and is congested and is breathing heavy too. Lee though is soooo loud. It reminds me of the last night in the hospital after I had Jackson. Now during the labor I wanted all of the drugs possible but after the birth I didn't want any drugs or sleep aids. The last night there the nurse comes in and asks me if I want something to help me sleep. I decline and tell her I'll be fine. My lovely and devoted husband goes to sleep on the bed next to me and before I know it he is in this wonderful deep sleep. So deep he is snoring and it can be heard outside of our room. Seriously, I'm not kidding.
I get up from the bed and walk down to the nurses station. I ask them nicely for something to help me sleep. I told her that if my husband wasn't in the room snoring and sleeping by a baby then I'd be fine but he was hindering my sleep. Then of course the women started talking about their husbands and the snoring. It's amazing how well he slept all 3 nights at the hospital. I just couldn't sleep.
I don't know if I have ever posted Jackson's birth story. Well on my baby board I use to be apart of. I think I did and I tried to save it but who knows where it is now. Jackson came the earliest of the two. Oh no, my insomnia from the snoring is going to get me typing and telling a story. Y'all watch out!!!
I had a rough pregnancy with Mackenzie. I think it was just horrific how my ankels and legs swelled and my hands, etc. My blood pressure was extremely high with both of the pregnancies and Jackson wasn't any different. I had an incompetent Dr. in Ft Walton and he knew of my past pre-elampsia w/ Mackenzie and he knew that my BP wasn't being controlled even with meds but it's like he didn't take it too seriously. Finally halfway through the pregnancy he sends me to a specialist in Pensacola to check on the baby. It was really neat because they did a 2-d u/s and it was so detailed and thankfully Jackson was okay even though my BP was crazy high.
When I saw that Dr. there (and he was wacko I tell you) I asked him if he could refer me to another Dr. He referred me to Dr. Lyle who was across the hall from his office. This is the best thing that could have happened. The first time I saw him I fell in love with him. He has good bedside manner, he listens and is just a nice man. He's not strange like some Dr.'s are. Lee and I both loved him. Because of my problems he monitored me very closely and thank goodness he did.
Starting at 32 weeks I had an u/s every week when I went. They checked the babies activity, the fluid level, the heart beat and something else (I can't remember) and I had to obtain at least a score of 6 and every week I got an 8.
Well Sat. Dec 18th was Lee's 31st B'day and b/c I had been put on bedrest mom and dad had taken Mackenzie back to their house with them after her Christmas program and she was going to stay with them until I had Jackson or something. We were all unsure. I was only 36 weeks along. Well I felt so sick during Lee's b'day dinner at Olive Garden. Even though I wasn't having labor pains my stomach just didn't feel right. Man was I huge! The entire night I was so uncomfortable.
Sun. the 19th Jana came over and I cooked a huge meal. This was odd because during my pregnancies I never feel like eating much. I cooked my BBQ bacon wrapped chicken, mac 'n cheese (homemade), greenbean cassarole and dessert. I remember eating and just stuffing my face. It was soooo good. I had a Dr.'s appt. the next morning at 8 and since it was in P'cola we had to leave the house by 6:45.
That entire night I could sleep. I was practicing my talk w/ Dr. Lile on all of the reasons why he should induce me the following Monday. It would be the 27th and after Christmas and I'd be 37 weeks so all would be fine in the wonderful world of Dr.'s. I seriously didn't go to sleep until 3 or 4. When you're pregnant you have a hard time sleeping anyway but I just kept going over in my mind what I'd say to him.
The next morning we get up and let me tell you I was starving. I think it's because whenever I eat a big meal at night for some reason the next morning I'm always super hungry. We didn't have time to eat and I told Lee after the Dr.'s appt I'd get something to eat at the hospital since they had a lot of choices. My whole thing was that starting that next Monday I'd take my hospital bags w/ me just incase I got induced. Since it's a long drive and all it would be smart. I was joking around w/ Lee that just b/c I didn't bring a bag I'd be induced, etc. All knowing that it'd hopefully be that next Monday and I was so excited.
We get to the Dr. and the girl who always did the u/s did it was usual but she was really quiet. I remember the entire time I was starving and my stomach was growling. This is around 8:15. I asked her if everything was okay and if he was still a boy. She told me she'd be back with us. She took her print outs and left. It was a tad odd b/c she's always super friendly and talkative. Lee and I go into a room and wait for the Dr. She comes in and tells us that there is someone shadowing Dr. Lile and learning and if it was okay for him to come in. I tell her that as long as he doesn't see me naked. That was so stupid b/c after being pregnant and having to bare yourself for every nurse and Dr. it shouldn't matter that much.
So Dr. Lile and the other guy comes in. I just remember Dr. Lile looking at us and telling us that Jackson's fluid levels were really low and that we'd be having a baby today or tomorrow. That we needed to go straight over to the maternity ward. I remember this wave of nervousness coming over me. I know I started to tear up. It was because I was excited to have the time come but nervous about him being born so early. Lee started panicing and started asking Dr. Lile all sorts of questions about his lungs, etc. Dr. Lile told him there was some risk but at this point the benefits outweighed the risk.
Last year I was looking over my medical records from the pregnancy (I had requested them b/c of insurance issues) and looked at my fluid levels from that day at the hospital. I looked them up to see what they meant. I had appx. 5% fluid. I guess I had been leaking it all week. It is a good thing that I was being monitored so closely because other wise he might now be here today.
So I ask Dr. Lile if I could get a muffin before going to the maternity ward. He tells me no and go straight over there b/c they are waiting on me. I was sooooo disappointed. The girl at checkout tells me not to stop and eat too. We walk outside of the office into the hallway. We are so excited but scared. The time had come. What we had waited for for the past 8 months was ready to come.
I remember he called his mom and I called mine. I called Jana at work. Marlana answered the phones. We had been practicing when this day would come. I said "Marlana, it's time. It's for real this time. Please go and get Jana". I said it just as calm as could be. She pulled Jana out of a meeting. I tell Jana what's going on and that she needed to sit tight b/c he might not even come until tomorrow.
We get to the nurses station and get checked in. Lee had to call his work and tell them that it was time and we was a having a baby! He was able to take the week off and it was so nice. He then had to go back to our house and pack up our stuff for the stay. It could be 3-4 days. He leaves and the nurse comes in and starts my Magnesium drip for the HBP and then comes back to put in my catheter. Okay, when I was preggers w/ Kenzie I told the girls at work I'd never let them give me a catheter. Well w/ her I had one but was knocked out when they gave it to me so I had no idea. Oh no. I was wide awake for this one. No drugs no nothing. I kept saying "no no no" and she'd stop. She told me if I said no then she couldn't do it. I told her my no's meant yes and she said it didn't matter. I couldn't bring myself to say "yes yes yes" for the catheter. It was awful. I don't recommend having one.
I was in the room by myself for a long time. Lee was gone for hours and hours. I was starving and couldn't have any food or water. Nothing. I talked to Jana and my mom throughout the day. It seemed that Lee kept calling my mom and Jana frantically to see what he needed to pack for the hospital. He was packing for both of us and didn't want to forget anything. Both of them were laughing about it to me but not in a mean way b/c it was just so cute and funny him worrying so much.
He finally got back in the afternoon and I can't remember much going on. The nurse had given me cervadil in my cervix to help thin it out and prepare me for the induction which would begin the next morning. The cervadil also tends to make ppl go in to labor so that was an option too. I remember getting contractions throughout the evening and the monitor wasn't picking them up. The nurse would come in and adjust the belt but couldn't find anything and I knew I felt contractions. Jana decided not to come up that night and would come early in the morning unless I went into full labor.
Lee went to sleep in the chair in the room. It made into a nice little sleeping thingy and he was comfy. His snoring confirmed that. I kept feeling more and more contractions throughout the night. I swear the nurses thought I was crazy b/c nothing was picking up. I was getting restless and was beginning to take pain meds (but not in the Anna Nicole Smith way, God Rest her Soul). Lee finally woke up around 5ish and I remember Jana got there early. By this time my contractions hurt sooooooo bad. Dr. Lile came in around 6 and decided to break my water. Can I just say that it makes the contractions 10 times as worse?
I guess I was basing my experience w/ Mackenzie and the HBP and assumed that they would keep me in a sedated type state as to not have my BP go up. With Mackenzie I only felt the first hour of contractions and only remember the last 1 1/2 of the labor which I felt nothing. This was not the case though with Jackson.
The contractions kept getting worse and worse. I think it was when Dr. Lile came in to break my water and I was holding on the to hand rails I asked if he'd take Lee in the next room and give him a vasectomy. I'd get pain meds every 1 1/2 hours but it didn't make a dent. I had to be 3 cms before they'd give me my epi. It took forever to get to 3cms. During every contractions I'd hold the hand rails so hard. My knuckels would turn so white. Lee would get so nervous and hate to see me in pain so he'd continue to talk non-stop throughout every contraction. All I wanted was silence. I know I yelled at him to shut up more than once. Jana was great walking me through the contractions and telling me when they'd be wrapping up.
Finally around 11am the nurse comes in and she says I'm almost 3cms but she'll go ahead and order my epi. The epi Dr. comes in and is an arrogant jerk and tells her he can't give me the epi b/c I haven't had recent lab work to check my liver enzymes b/c of the BP. What the heck??? I'd had all of that the day before. Lee is furious! I have never seen him so mad before in my life. He goes out into the hallway to find Dr. Lile after they told him it'd be at least an hour to get the lab results back.
A girl came in and took my blood and my Jana stayed w/ me while Lee was raising hell in the hallway. Dr. Lile was on the phone w/ the lab and I swear within 3 mins the results were back and the epi Dr. was back. He had me lie on my side for the epi and it was a good position. I was scared. I'm not going to lie. I hate needles. I was so out of it during the epi w/ Kenzie that I remember it hurting b/c I was sitting up in the middle of a contraction but couldn't remember the needle pain. It wasn't bad at all. I guess it's only b/c he did it in the middle of a contraction and with that pain nothing would hurt.
After 15 mins or so the epi kicked in and I think at that time all of the pain meds decided to kick in. I was very loopy. Lee and Jana decided to get something to eat while I was resting. As they were getting ready to and were leaving I was singing a song from American Idol and swinging my fingers in the air to the song. I know. I'm odd.
I passed out. The next thing I remember is waking up and no one is in the room. I can hardly move my head and I feel something baring down on me. I can tell Jackson is ready to come. I passed back out but I have no idea for how long. I woke back up and remember thinking I can't even move or think to push the nurses button. Thank goodness Lee and Jana walk in the room. I tell them I think it's time. Yeah, they go to lunch and I'm at 3 and they come back and we're ready for a baby.
It took a few mins for me to decide for them to get a nurse. Lee goes and gets our favorite nurse and she take a look/feel and says I'm at 9 almost there. The other mean nurse that we all (especially Lee and he had a good reason) and she said there is no way she's ready and cops a feel and yeah it's time. It all happened so quickly. They have someone rush and call the Dr. and they're throwing the bed together to make it into the birthing thingy.
I keep feeling this urge to good potty (yes, number 2) and they tell me not to push. I couldn't help it. I couldn't do anything but push. The mean nurse is sitting on the stool because the Dr. isn't there yet and Jackson was a coming. Dr. Lile literally came running in and sat on the stool. Maybe 1 contraction later Jackson's head came through but not out completely. Lee is at the end of the bed staring in complete and utter fascination. Jana took a peek and she exclaims "he's got hair".
She reclaims her side by me and I just push so hard and I feel his head come completely out and Dr. Lile tells me to stop pushing. Do you know how hard it is to stop in the middle of pushing something out of you? It's like stopping your pee or diareah (sp?) midstream. Then I felt this pain. I had to stop pushing b/c Dr. Lile was freeing Jackson's shoulders so he could finish plopping out.
I get the okay to push and then there was this beautiful baby born. They immediately placed him on me and as it was with Mackenzie (due to the Magniesium they were giving me) I couldn't hold him or do much. My muscle were relaxed and couldn't hardly move around. He was beautiful and he was okay. He was breathing. His lungs were perfect.
They had 2 NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) nurses on standby in our room and they immediately took him off of me and into the small room off the back of the room. Jana stayed with me while Lee went with Jackson. I remember asking the Dr. if I ripped and he said no that everything was perfect. I had to give birth to the afterbirth (yummy I know) and Jana was shown what the placenta looked like. I have to say it was really cool. It was just like a huge blood clot but that was perfectly round and had an opening where Jackson was.
The nurses were giving Jackson oxygen with a mask to just make sure he was okay. They handed that job over to Lee and it was funny b/c he was so excited and couldn't concentrate that he'd have it halfway over him or off and it was cute. They weighed him and he was 5lbs 15oz and the nurse said he would've been an even 6lbs if he hadn't of peed right before she weighed him. He was 19 inches long and perfect.
They took him to the NICU for the Dr. to check out and Lee went with him. Jana stayed with me. Oh and someone brought me a 2ltr of Sprite and 2 1/2 gallon Gatorades. Remember I haven't eaten in almost 48hrs (since Sunday night) and had a drink either. I was so thirsty. The nurses weren't thrilled on me drinking but I did anyway. I had to stay on the Mag. for 24 hrs after his birth to ensure my BP didn't go out of control. Thus the catheter remained.
I am not kidding. I drank the entire 2ltr Sprite and 1 of the Gatorades within an hour. I drank the 2nd Gatorade by 6pm or so. The nurses had to check my urine every 2 hrs to make sure I still didn't have protein in it. Our favorite nurse on the night shift said my drinking diluted my pee so they couldn't tell if I did have protein in it but I told her I was probably just flushing it all out. :-)
Jana went home at 6 and they finally brought Jackson to us at 8pm. He was beautiful and perfect. He was tiny and wonderful. Lee got to change his first diaper since I was so frail from the meds. He even fed him too. I drifted off to sleep and Lee went back to the nursery w/ Jackson. He went because he wanted lessons on how to swaddle him in a blanket. He would go to the nursery when I would rest or sleep at night and get lessons on diapering, feeding and swaddling from the nurses. It was so adorable. I found him the last night there in a dark room in the nursery singing to Jackson.
It's hard to believe 2 years has past and our baby is talking up a storm. He is a wonderful boy as is Mackenzie (well, a wonderful girl). I love my babies. I know this was a long story but I enjoyed typing it. I started it on Friday night and just finished it Sunday morning. It took a little longer to type than I expected.
I get up from the bed and walk down to the nurses station. I ask them nicely for something to help me sleep. I told her that if my husband wasn't in the room snoring and sleeping by a baby then I'd be fine but he was hindering my sleep. Then of course the women started talking about their husbands and the snoring. It's amazing how well he slept all 3 nights at the hospital. I just couldn't sleep.
I don't know if I have ever posted Jackson's birth story. Well on my baby board I use to be apart of. I think I did and I tried to save it but who knows where it is now. Jackson came the earliest of the two. Oh no, my insomnia from the snoring is going to get me typing and telling a story. Y'all watch out!!!
I had a rough pregnancy with Mackenzie. I think it was just horrific how my ankels and legs swelled and my hands, etc. My blood pressure was extremely high with both of the pregnancies and Jackson wasn't any different. I had an incompetent Dr. in Ft Walton and he knew of my past pre-elampsia w/ Mackenzie and he knew that my BP wasn't being controlled even with meds but it's like he didn't take it too seriously. Finally halfway through the pregnancy he sends me to a specialist in Pensacola to check on the baby. It was really neat because they did a 2-d u/s and it was so detailed and thankfully Jackson was okay even though my BP was crazy high.
When I saw that Dr. there (and he was wacko I tell you) I asked him if he could refer me to another Dr. He referred me to Dr. Lyle who was across the hall from his office. This is the best thing that could have happened. The first time I saw him I fell in love with him. He has good bedside manner, he listens and is just a nice man. He's not strange like some Dr.'s are. Lee and I both loved him. Because of my problems he monitored me very closely and thank goodness he did.
Starting at 32 weeks I had an u/s every week when I went. They checked the babies activity, the fluid level, the heart beat and something else (I can't remember) and I had to obtain at least a score of 6 and every week I got an 8.
Well Sat. Dec 18th was Lee's 31st B'day and b/c I had been put on bedrest mom and dad had taken Mackenzie back to their house with them after her Christmas program and she was going to stay with them until I had Jackson or something. We were all unsure. I was only 36 weeks along. Well I felt so sick during Lee's b'day dinner at Olive Garden. Even though I wasn't having labor pains my stomach just didn't feel right. Man was I huge! The entire night I was so uncomfortable.
Sun. the 19th Jana came over and I cooked a huge meal. This was odd because during my pregnancies I never feel like eating much. I cooked my BBQ bacon wrapped chicken, mac 'n cheese (homemade), greenbean cassarole and dessert. I remember eating and just stuffing my face. It was soooo good. I had a Dr.'s appt. the next morning at 8 and since it was in P'cola we had to leave the house by 6:45.
That entire night I could sleep. I was practicing my talk w/ Dr. Lile on all of the reasons why he should induce me the following Monday. It would be the 27th and after Christmas and I'd be 37 weeks so all would be fine in the wonderful world of Dr.'s. I seriously didn't go to sleep until 3 or 4. When you're pregnant you have a hard time sleeping anyway but I just kept going over in my mind what I'd say to him.
The next morning we get up and let me tell you I was starving. I think it's because whenever I eat a big meal at night for some reason the next morning I'm always super hungry. We didn't have time to eat and I told Lee after the Dr.'s appt I'd get something to eat at the hospital since they had a lot of choices. My whole thing was that starting that next Monday I'd take my hospital bags w/ me just incase I got induced. Since it's a long drive and all it would be smart. I was joking around w/ Lee that just b/c I didn't bring a bag I'd be induced, etc. All knowing that it'd hopefully be that next Monday and I was so excited.
We get to the Dr. and the girl who always did the u/s did it was usual but she was really quiet. I remember the entire time I was starving and my stomach was growling. This is around 8:15. I asked her if everything was okay and if he was still a boy. She told me she'd be back with us. She took her print outs and left. It was a tad odd b/c she's always super friendly and talkative. Lee and I go into a room and wait for the Dr. She comes in and tells us that there is someone shadowing Dr. Lile and learning and if it was okay for him to come in. I tell her that as long as he doesn't see me naked. That was so stupid b/c after being pregnant and having to bare yourself for every nurse and Dr. it shouldn't matter that much.
So Dr. Lile and the other guy comes in. I just remember Dr. Lile looking at us and telling us that Jackson's fluid levels were really low and that we'd be having a baby today or tomorrow. That we needed to go straight over to the maternity ward. I remember this wave of nervousness coming over me. I know I started to tear up. It was because I was excited to have the time come but nervous about him being born so early. Lee started panicing and started asking Dr. Lile all sorts of questions about his lungs, etc. Dr. Lile told him there was some risk but at this point the benefits outweighed the risk.
Last year I was looking over my medical records from the pregnancy (I had requested them b/c of insurance issues) and looked at my fluid levels from that day at the hospital. I looked them up to see what they meant. I had appx. 5% fluid. I guess I had been leaking it all week. It is a good thing that I was being monitored so closely because other wise he might now be here today.
So I ask Dr. Lile if I could get a muffin before going to the maternity ward. He tells me no and go straight over there b/c they are waiting on me. I was sooooo disappointed. The girl at checkout tells me not to stop and eat too. We walk outside of the office into the hallway. We are so excited but scared. The time had come. What we had waited for for the past 8 months was ready to come.
I remember he called his mom and I called mine. I called Jana at work. Marlana answered the phones. We had been practicing when this day would come. I said "Marlana, it's time. It's for real this time. Please go and get Jana". I said it just as calm as could be. She pulled Jana out of a meeting. I tell Jana what's going on and that she needed to sit tight b/c he might not even come until tomorrow.
We get to the nurses station and get checked in. Lee had to call his work and tell them that it was time and we was a having a baby! He was able to take the week off and it was so nice. He then had to go back to our house and pack up our stuff for the stay. It could be 3-4 days. He leaves and the nurse comes in and starts my Magnesium drip for the HBP and then comes back to put in my catheter. Okay, when I was preggers w/ Kenzie I told the girls at work I'd never let them give me a catheter. Well w/ her I had one but was knocked out when they gave it to me so I had no idea. Oh no. I was wide awake for this one. No drugs no nothing. I kept saying "no no no" and she'd stop. She told me if I said no then she couldn't do it. I told her my no's meant yes and she said it didn't matter. I couldn't bring myself to say "yes yes yes" for the catheter. It was awful. I don't recommend having one.
I was in the room by myself for a long time. Lee was gone for hours and hours. I was starving and couldn't have any food or water. Nothing. I talked to Jana and my mom throughout the day. It seemed that Lee kept calling my mom and Jana frantically to see what he needed to pack for the hospital. He was packing for both of us and didn't want to forget anything. Both of them were laughing about it to me but not in a mean way b/c it was just so cute and funny him worrying so much.
He finally got back in the afternoon and I can't remember much going on. The nurse had given me cervadil in my cervix to help thin it out and prepare me for the induction which would begin the next morning. The cervadil also tends to make ppl go in to labor so that was an option too. I remember getting contractions throughout the evening and the monitor wasn't picking them up. The nurse would come in and adjust the belt but couldn't find anything and I knew I felt contractions. Jana decided not to come up that night and would come early in the morning unless I went into full labor.
Lee went to sleep in the chair in the room. It made into a nice little sleeping thingy and he was comfy. His snoring confirmed that. I kept feeling more and more contractions throughout the night. I swear the nurses thought I was crazy b/c nothing was picking up. I was getting restless and was beginning to take pain meds (but not in the Anna Nicole Smith way, God Rest her Soul). Lee finally woke up around 5ish and I remember Jana got there early. By this time my contractions hurt sooooooo bad. Dr. Lile came in around 6 and decided to break my water. Can I just say that it makes the contractions 10 times as worse?
I guess I was basing my experience w/ Mackenzie and the HBP and assumed that they would keep me in a sedated type state as to not have my BP go up. With Mackenzie I only felt the first hour of contractions and only remember the last 1 1/2 of the labor which I felt nothing. This was not the case though with Jackson.
The contractions kept getting worse and worse. I think it was when Dr. Lile came in to break my water and I was holding on the to hand rails I asked if he'd take Lee in the next room and give him a vasectomy. I'd get pain meds every 1 1/2 hours but it didn't make a dent. I had to be 3 cms before they'd give me my epi. It took forever to get to 3cms. During every contractions I'd hold the hand rails so hard. My knuckels would turn so white. Lee would get so nervous and hate to see me in pain so he'd continue to talk non-stop throughout every contraction. All I wanted was silence. I know I yelled at him to shut up more than once. Jana was great walking me through the contractions and telling me when they'd be wrapping up.
Finally around 11am the nurse comes in and she says I'm almost 3cms but she'll go ahead and order my epi. The epi Dr. comes in and is an arrogant jerk and tells her he can't give me the epi b/c I haven't had recent lab work to check my liver enzymes b/c of the BP. What the heck??? I'd had all of that the day before. Lee is furious! I have never seen him so mad before in my life. He goes out into the hallway to find Dr. Lile after they told him it'd be at least an hour to get the lab results back.
A girl came in and took my blood and my Jana stayed w/ me while Lee was raising hell in the hallway. Dr. Lile was on the phone w/ the lab and I swear within 3 mins the results were back and the epi Dr. was back. He had me lie on my side for the epi and it was a good position. I was scared. I'm not going to lie. I hate needles. I was so out of it during the epi w/ Kenzie that I remember it hurting b/c I was sitting up in the middle of a contraction but couldn't remember the needle pain. It wasn't bad at all. I guess it's only b/c he did it in the middle of a contraction and with that pain nothing would hurt.
After 15 mins or so the epi kicked in and I think at that time all of the pain meds decided to kick in. I was very loopy. Lee and Jana decided to get something to eat while I was resting. As they were getting ready to and were leaving I was singing a song from American Idol and swinging my fingers in the air to the song. I know. I'm odd.
I passed out. The next thing I remember is waking up and no one is in the room. I can hardly move my head and I feel something baring down on me. I can tell Jackson is ready to come. I passed back out but I have no idea for how long. I woke back up and remember thinking I can't even move or think to push the nurses button. Thank goodness Lee and Jana walk in the room. I tell them I think it's time. Yeah, they go to lunch and I'm at 3 and they come back and we're ready for a baby.
It took a few mins for me to decide for them to get a nurse. Lee goes and gets our favorite nurse and she take a look/feel and says I'm at 9 almost there. The other mean nurse that we all (especially Lee and he had a good reason) and she said there is no way she's ready and cops a feel and yeah it's time. It all happened so quickly. They have someone rush and call the Dr. and they're throwing the bed together to make it into the birthing thingy.
I keep feeling this urge to good potty (yes, number 2) and they tell me not to push. I couldn't help it. I couldn't do anything but push. The mean nurse is sitting on the stool because the Dr. isn't there yet and Jackson was a coming. Dr. Lile literally came running in and sat on the stool. Maybe 1 contraction later Jackson's head came through but not out completely. Lee is at the end of the bed staring in complete and utter fascination. Jana took a peek and she exclaims "he's got hair".
She reclaims her side by me and I just push so hard and I feel his head come completely out and Dr. Lile tells me to stop pushing. Do you know how hard it is to stop in the middle of pushing something out of you? It's like stopping your pee or diareah (sp?) midstream. Then I felt this pain. I had to stop pushing b/c Dr. Lile was freeing Jackson's shoulders so he could finish plopping out.
I get the okay to push and then there was this beautiful baby born. They immediately placed him on me and as it was with Mackenzie (due to the Magniesium they were giving me) I couldn't hold him or do much. My muscle were relaxed and couldn't hardly move around. He was beautiful and he was okay. He was breathing. His lungs were perfect.
They had 2 NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) nurses on standby in our room and they immediately took him off of me and into the small room off the back of the room. Jana stayed with me while Lee went with Jackson. I remember asking the Dr. if I ripped and he said no that everything was perfect. I had to give birth to the afterbirth (yummy I know) and Jana was shown what the placenta looked like. I have to say it was really cool. It was just like a huge blood clot but that was perfectly round and had an opening where Jackson was.
The nurses were giving Jackson oxygen with a mask to just make sure he was okay. They handed that job over to Lee and it was funny b/c he was so excited and couldn't concentrate that he'd have it halfway over him or off and it was cute. They weighed him and he was 5lbs 15oz and the nurse said he would've been an even 6lbs if he hadn't of peed right before she weighed him. He was 19 inches long and perfect.
They took him to the NICU for the Dr. to check out and Lee went with him. Jana stayed with me. Oh and someone brought me a 2ltr of Sprite and 2 1/2 gallon Gatorades. Remember I haven't eaten in almost 48hrs (since Sunday night) and had a drink either. I was so thirsty. The nurses weren't thrilled on me drinking but I did anyway. I had to stay on the Mag. for 24 hrs after his birth to ensure my BP didn't go out of control. Thus the catheter remained.
I am not kidding. I drank the entire 2ltr Sprite and 1 of the Gatorades within an hour. I drank the 2nd Gatorade by 6pm or so. The nurses had to check my urine every 2 hrs to make sure I still didn't have protein in it. Our favorite nurse on the night shift said my drinking diluted my pee so they couldn't tell if I did have protein in it but I told her I was probably just flushing it all out. :-)
Jana went home at 6 and they finally brought Jackson to us at 8pm. He was beautiful and perfect. He was tiny and wonderful. Lee got to change his first diaper since I was so frail from the meds. He even fed him too. I drifted off to sleep and Lee went back to the nursery w/ Jackson. He went because he wanted lessons on how to swaddle him in a blanket. He would go to the nursery when I would rest or sleep at night and get lessons on diapering, feeding and swaddling from the nurses. It was so adorable. I found him the last night there in a dark room in the nursery singing to Jackson.
It's hard to believe 2 years has past and our baby is talking up a storm. He is a wonderful boy as is Mackenzie (well, a wonderful girl). I love my babies. I know this was a long story but I enjoyed typing it. I started it on Friday night and just finished it Sunday morning. It took a little longer to type than I expected.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Why Am I Still Up?
I should be in bed. It's 11:18 and I have a very long and busy day tomorrow. I am finishing up the end of tonight's Grey's Anatomy. I am yet again amazed by the quality of the show. It's just amazing and every week it gets better and better. I also love The Office. Yet again Michael made a completely fool of himself.
Lee was off of work today and he met me and the kids at O'Charley's for dinner. It was not fun. Jackson was just wanting me and then pushing me out of the booth, and I mean literally. Telling me to move over and over again. I hate being in restaurants and having my kids act up. I don't like it. It's like the crying baby in church. When we left Lee took the kids to Books A Million and I went to CVS. Yes, I got a ton of stuff for $1.48 and I'm getting $15 back too. :-)
I also made really good friends with the manager that was so helpful on Sunday. When I called CVS on Monday to get them to transfer my CVS card I made a point to tell them how wonderful Randy, the manager was. I asked them to tell the district manager or whomever about him. When I went in tonight I went to Randy to thank him for all of his help and then he told me that he and his higher ups got an email from corporate about my phone call. That made me feel good because I know how important it is for people to be told their doing a good job when they are and for their superiors to know.
Oh and can I say Bob at work is going to get on my last freaking nerve. He calls me today and with a horrible cell phone reception tells me word for word now that "S at B Bank & Trust was yelling at the lunch today how she hasn't gotten got the recorded mortgage for the L closing". Ummm... the closing was 2 weeks ago. The major weakness in almost every title company is the issuance of title policies. On top of that I have been more than overwhelmed than one person should be. So any way I explain to Bob that I have actually been doing policies as I go and that most people get policies/recordings done in 6 weeks - 3 months or sometimes longer. So I'm doing good doing them in 3-4 weeks.
So after explaining to Bob how policies work and all of this crap he tells me we need to get together to figure out a way to make the process more efficient. Ummm... hello dude. I'm the only one in the flipping office and doing the work of at least 3 people. Don't tell me we need to get together and go over anything. I am doing them in a more timely manner than ever before and that's probably because I know how busy we've been and don't want to get so far behind. Then he tells me that once we formulate our plan on getting policies out speedy fast then he can use that as a marketing tool to the lenders.
Okay. Lenders like Countrywide, etc. don't care. The loan officers and processors don't give a rat's patootie when they get the policy b/c once the file closes they are done with it. It's so stupid and Bob is so like my dad and gets so over emotional and excited and loud when he talks. I can't deal with him when he's like that. Okay, then after him telling me he was going to call so and so at the bank to tell them they'd get it in a week or so I tell him I'll call them and take care of it so I can calm them down or whatever. OH MY GOSH... that's when I said something to him and I can't remember what but he said "I never said she was yelling or really upset just that she mentioned it". Now I know he did. He gets so heated, etc. and wants things done instantly and to oh my gosh. I can't even type it out. I'm about to strangle him. Seriously. I'm not kidding, I promise on my babies, that he got MAD when we didn't get as many new files in as he wanted.
What's worse is when I went into the Countrywide office last week to deliver a package one of the l/o tells me that they honestly can't stand Bob when he comes in. That he makes them cringe. She then introduces me to this other l/o he's been trying to take to lunch. She says the same thing to me. Seriously, this is the 6 or 7th person now who have said this to me. What is worse that someone from the real estate office he did lunch at this week made some negative comments about his approach and his style.
Bob doesn't see it. He ever said after the meeting about how people just love him. I am beginning to wonder if people just say stuff to him to make him go away. He's always expecting title orders from so many people and they never come in. I'd tell him something to make him leave me alone too. Oh and K the l/o at CW told me the only reason she uses us is not b/c of Bob but b/c of me and my service. I keep hearing this over and over again and it's good to hear that. I like my job!
I like my sleep. I'm going to bed after some Gatorade.
Lee was off of work today and he met me and the kids at O'Charley's for dinner. It was not fun. Jackson was just wanting me and then pushing me out of the booth, and I mean literally. Telling me to move over and over again. I hate being in restaurants and having my kids act up. I don't like it. It's like the crying baby in church. When we left Lee took the kids to Books A Million and I went to CVS. Yes, I got a ton of stuff for $1.48 and I'm getting $15 back too. :-)
I also made really good friends with the manager that was so helpful on Sunday. When I called CVS on Monday to get them to transfer my CVS card I made a point to tell them how wonderful Randy, the manager was. I asked them to tell the district manager or whomever about him. When I went in tonight I went to Randy to thank him for all of his help and then he told me that he and his higher ups got an email from corporate about my phone call. That made me feel good because I know how important it is for people to be told their doing a good job when they are and for their superiors to know.
Oh and can I say Bob at work is going to get on my last freaking nerve. He calls me today and with a horrible cell phone reception tells me word for word now that "S at B Bank & Trust was yelling at the lunch today how she hasn't gotten got the recorded mortgage for the L closing". Ummm... the closing was 2 weeks ago. The major weakness in almost every title company is the issuance of title policies. On top of that I have been more than overwhelmed than one person should be. So any way I explain to Bob that I have actually been doing policies as I go and that most people get policies/recordings done in 6 weeks - 3 months or sometimes longer. So I'm doing good doing them in 3-4 weeks.
So after explaining to Bob how policies work and all of this crap he tells me we need to get together to figure out a way to make the process more efficient. Ummm... hello dude. I'm the only one in the flipping office and doing the work of at least 3 people. Don't tell me we need to get together and go over anything. I am doing them in a more timely manner than ever before and that's probably because I know how busy we've been and don't want to get so far behind. Then he tells me that once we formulate our plan on getting policies out speedy fast then he can use that as a marketing tool to the lenders.
Okay. Lenders like Countrywide, etc. don't care. The loan officers and processors don't give a rat's patootie when they get the policy b/c once the file closes they are done with it. It's so stupid and Bob is so like my dad and gets so over emotional and excited and loud when he talks. I can't deal with him when he's like that. Okay, then after him telling me he was going to call so and so at the bank to tell them they'd get it in a week or so I tell him I'll call them and take care of it so I can calm them down or whatever. OH MY GOSH... that's when I said something to him and I can't remember what but he said "I never said she was yelling or really upset just that she mentioned it". Now I know he did. He gets so heated, etc. and wants things done instantly and to oh my gosh. I can't even type it out. I'm about to strangle him. Seriously. I'm not kidding, I promise on my babies, that he got MAD when we didn't get as many new files in as he wanted.
What's worse is when I went into the Countrywide office last week to deliver a package one of the l/o tells me that they honestly can't stand Bob when he comes in. That he makes them cringe. She then introduces me to this other l/o he's been trying to take to lunch. She says the same thing to me. Seriously, this is the 6 or 7th person now who have said this to me. What is worse that someone from the real estate office he did lunch at this week made some negative comments about his approach and his style.
Bob doesn't see it. He ever said after the meeting about how people just love him. I am beginning to wonder if people just say stuff to him to make him go away. He's always expecting title orders from so many people and they never come in. I'd tell him something to make him leave me alone too. Oh and K the l/o at CW told me the only reason she uses us is not b/c of Bob but b/c of me and my service. I keep hearing this over and over again and it's good to hear that. I like my job!
I like my sleep. I'm going to bed after some Gatorade.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Myspace
I've had people make fun of me because I have a myspace page. In this day and age I mean almost everyone has one. I mean my mom who is 52 has one (although it's only b/c Elizabeth's page went private and she was trying to get an invite to see it) but still. I have found some more people this weekend that I grew up with and was able to see their pages and their kids. It's great. I think it's a really neat way to connect.
Michael Robison was our youth ministers son while I was growing up. His b'day is the day before mine. We were all great friends and he moved while we were sophmores in high school up to TN. He got married to this girl he met up there and they now have a son Evan and are expecting another kid. Honestly it was hard for me and Jessica and others to imagine him being married to someone who wasn't apart of our group in Montgomery. He looks so happy and it's so great to see him all grown up. I can hardly believe how old we're all getting.
So then I get an invite from Mandy (I don't know if she goes by Mandy now or Amanda) who lived in Montgomery and went to our church for a while and I went to school w/ her in 8th grade. Come to find out Mandy was one of Michael's friends on myspace. Now Mandy's cousin Kirk, I also went to 8th grade with and then high school. He became one of my friends a long time ago. I loved Kirk to death. Funny great guy. I actually think his b'day is the day after mine. Weird. Anyway I didn't even realize Mandy was one of his friends or I would've recognized her.
So last week I found my cousin from my mom's side of the family and sent her a message via myspace. It was nice and fuzzy and all and I haven't talked to her in ummm... 18 years? So I haven't heard back from her at all but that's okay. I don't need to hear from her to have a great life although it'd be nice. And on top of that her picture looks just like my grandmother Avonelle. Except for the hair color but it's just strange looking at her.
So then I was looking at Kirk's page and this girl who is a friend on my cousin's page is on Kirk's page. Ummm... it's a small world. Yes, very small. We're all interconnected.
I'm just wondering how many people I'll end up finding. I feel kind of strange asking people that I sorta knew or barely knew to be my friends although I've learned most people don't feel that way and just send an invite to just about anyone.
I just wanted to give a big thanks to Eileen and Bob for sending money to sponsor Mackenzie for the American Heart Association's Jump Rope for Heart. Brad also sent money in as well. I'm still waiting on Grandmother Godfrey's check and my dad's. Neil... I'm waiting on yours too. :-) I appreciate everyone contributing to her. I hate asking money from people even if it is for a good cause so I appreciate the warm response. Anyone else who wants to send in a donation it is due in by Feb 23rd and you can make out the checks to the American Heart Association. If you don't know my address then send me an email at rebekahussery@yahoo.com.
I think me and the kids are all getting sick from this weather we have been having. I've had a sore throat for a few days and it'll eventually go away during the afternoon but the drainage and the yacking and hacking is so gross. Mackenzie is doing the same exact thing. Jackson this morning sounded congested but I couldn't see anything up there to get out. Well of course on the way in to town this morning he sneezes and this huge hard dark green thing comes flying out. Well it kinda just landed on his check. I gave him a diaper wipe and he tried to wipe it (read: he wouldn't let me do it) and of course he just wiped it to the other side. How nice. So Mackenzie my little trooper cleaned it up for him.
When I got to Candy's house he wanted to take his overalls off so bad. I think he just doesn't like them. She obliged him but when he realized if they were off he had no pants he freaked out and put them back on. He's so odd.
Oh and last night he was so freaking cute. He was in the bed with me and Lee. Lee was watching 24 on the computer and I was just talking and playing w/ Jackson. He all the sudden says "ready... one... two... free" and just jumps on top of my stomach. He has this huge grin on his face and kept saying "again again". I let him even though the palm of his hand would slap my chest but it was just so freaking cute. Lee stopped watching his show and got to be jumped on for a while too.
My kids are just growing up so fast. I'm so glad that they are growing and learning so much but at the same time it makes me a little sad. I mean one day they are going to be so big that they won't want to snuggle with me in the bed. Or say "cheek cheek kiss" and kiss my check with slobber and all. And me the germaphobic loves it. I'll hold Mackenzie in my arms while sitting on the couch and I swear her legs are longer than mine. She's just getting so big. I'm scared to see how tall she's going to be. I just know before long she'll be taller than me. So when that happens does that mean I lose my place as boss?
Well I'm going to head out. My day at work has been extremly stressful and at one point I think I was having a panic attack. I'm still so overwhelmed and it seems impossible to get it all done. I called Jana and just vented and just got it all out of my system. I felt like I couldn't breathe. She told me to take my medicine and of course I didn't and then she said "take it now" so a half a Xnanx later I was better. I just can't continue on with this stress. I'm going to die of an aniexty attack or a heart attack or stroke from the high BP.
Oh and I'm so excited that my cousin from OH is coming down in 2 weeks to visit his brother Neil. I haven't seen Brent in forever. I use to think he was a cutie (for a male cousin and not in a gross way... okay people) and I'm sure he still is but from what I've seen he doesn't have much hair left. I'd love to see him but I'm in a perdicament. I was going that same weekend anyway to my Grandmother's house to go through her things and take what I wanted. So I mentioned to dad about going over to Atlanta when I got finished and seeing Neil, Brent, etc. and he just about flipped out. You see in my family my dad and Grandmother will sometimes get real excited or passionate about something and their voices will get real loud and I don't know if freak out is a good term but something. This is where I get it from.
So Dad is wondering how in the world I am going to be able to do all I have to do at Grandmother's and head over to ATL which isn't that far from her house. Then he's wondering how I'm going to lug everything back to his house. Blah blah blah. Then he gets in his head that they should all go over to Grandmother's house instead, etc. I'm also told that it would just be too much for them to watch the kids for 1 stinking night and I have to take the kids with me if I go.
#1 I know Brent hasn't seen Grandmother in years too and she'd just die if she could see him but at the same time he rarely sees his own brother and will only be down for 2 days. And in all honesty neither of my cousins are that close with Grandmother. It's not that they don't like each other but she has to realize they don't have a lot in common. It's just different. I can't explain it but Dad gets it.
#2 I want to go and see them and maybe go to dinner or do something. I don't ever get to be adult like and do things of that nature. I'd love to see all of them and hang out in a non-Thanksgiving environment. I know that they have Jonathan and all but I can't really take the kids with me and it be that easy. The more I go to thinking about it if I went I'd just probably get a hotel room and spend Saturday night there and drive back on Sunday to B'ham. Well if I have to take the kids having them in a hotel room is not the best situation especially since it'll be me by myself w/out Lee.
I guess it seemed like a good idea but it's just not going to work. Sometimes I get frustrated because I have no family down here and it's always me and the kids. I love them to pieces but you know it'd be nice to have Grandparents around who could take over for a night or two. So although we'll be in B'ham they just don't think they can handle them. For one night. I'm sad because I thought it'd be a chance to hang out with family and act like adults. I guess my chance to finally be an adult will be when my kids are gone out of the house. But by then I'll just be broke because I will have paid for college and a wedding and who knows what else.
I guess this is my little pitty party for myself. I just wish things were different sometimes. I wish that I was able to enjoy certain things.
Oh and Jessica called me last night because they are trying to plan our 2nd Annual girls weekend. Well Anne works for the airlines and in March she will be eligible for 4 free plane tickets roundtrip to anywhere. Great right? I mean instead of having it down here we can go anywhere. Anywhere in the states. Great right? No. Lee can't take off work once the "season" hits and there is no way mom can come down here and help with the kids for me to go. So just like last year when it got all screwed up b/c my baby sitter canceled on me that Friday night and I missed dinner w/ the girls and staying at the hotel that I paid for all by myself. Ugh.
My pitty party is over. I'm done with my sulking. I'm just going to go figure out dinner and the kids now. I haven't eaten all day. I'm hungry. Bye!
Michael Robison was our youth ministers son while I was growing up. His b'day is the day before mine. We were all great friends and he moved while we were sophmores in high school up to TN. He got married to this girl he met up there and they now have a son Evan and are expecting another kid. Honestly it was hard for me and Jessica and others to imagine him being married to someone who wasn't apart of our group in Montgomery. He looks so happy and it's so great to see him all grown up. I can hardly believe how old we're all getting.
So then I get an invite from Mandy (I don't know if she goes by Mandy now or Amanda) who lived in Montgomery and went to our church for a while and I went to school w/ her in 8th grade. Come to find out Mandy was one of Michael's friends on myspace. Now Mandy's cousin Kirk, I also went to 8th grade with and then high school. He became one of my friends a long time ago. I loved Kirk to death. Funny great guy. I actually think his b'day is the day after mine. Weird. Anyway I didn't even realize Mandy was one of his friends or I would've recognized her.
So last week I found my cousin from my mom's side of the family and sent her a message via myspace. It was nice and fuzzy and all and I haven't talked to her in ummm... 18 years? So I haven't heard back from her at all but that's okay. I don't need to hear from her to have a great life although it'd be nice. And on top of that her picture looks just like my grandmother Avonelle. Except for the hair color but it's just strange looking at her.
So then I was looking at Kirk's page and this girl who is a friend on my cousin's page is on Kirk's page. Ummm... it's a small world. Yes, very small. We're all interconnected.
I'm just wondering how many people I'll end up finding. I feel kind of strange asking people that I sorta knew or barely knew to be my friends although I've learned most people don't feel that way and just send an invite to just about anyone.
I just wanted to give a big thanks to Eileen and Bob for sending money to sponsor Mackenzie for the American Heart Association's Jump Rope for Heart. Brad also sent money in as well. I'm still waiting on Grandmother Godfrey's check and my dad's. Neil... I'm waiting on yours too. :-) I appreciate everyone contributing to her. I hate asking money from people even if it is for a good cause so I appreciate the warm response. Anyone else who wants to send in a donation it is due in by Feb 23rd and you can make out the checks to the American Heart Association. If you don't know my address then send me an email at rebekahussery@yahoo.com.
I think me and the kids are all getting sick from this weather we have been having. I've had a sore throat for a few days and it'll eventually go away during the afternoon but the drainage and the yacking and hacking is so gross. Mackenzie is doing the same exact thing. Jackson this morning sounded congested but I couldn't see anything up there to get out. Well of course on the way in to town this morning he sneezes and this huge hard dark green thing comes flying out. Well it kinda just landed on his check. I gave him a diaper wipe and he tried to wipe it (read: he wouldn't let me do it) and of course he just wiped it to the other side. How nice. So Mackenzie my little trooper cleaned it up for him.
When I got to Candy's house he wanted to take his overalls off so bad. I think he just doesn't like them. She obliged him but when he realized if they were off he had no pants he freaked out and put them back on. He's so odd.
Oh and last night he was so freaking cute. He was in the bed with me and Lee. Lee was watching 24 on the computer and I was just talking and playing w/ Jackson. He all the sudden says "ready... one... two... free" and just jumps on top of my stomach. He has this huge grin on his face and kept saying "again again". I let him even though the palm of his hand would slap my chest but it was just so freaking cute. Lee stopped watching his show and got to be jumped on for a while too.
My kids are just growing up so fast. I'm so glad that they are growing and learning so much but at the same time it makes me a little sad. I mean one day they are going to be so big that they won't want to snuggle with me in the bed. Or say "cheek cheek kiss" and kiss my check with slobber and all. And me the germaphobic loves it. I'll hold Mackenzie in my arms while sitting on the couch and I swear her legs are longer than mine. She's just getting so big. I'm scared to see how tall she's going to be. I just know before long she'll be taller than me. So when that happens does that mean I lose my place as boss?
Well I'm going to head out. My day at work has been extremly stressful and at one point I think I was having a panic attack. I'm still so overwhelmed and it seems impossible to get it all done. I called Jana and just vented and just got it all out of my system. I felt like I couldn't breathe. She told me to take my medicine and of course I didn't and then she said "take it now" so a half a Xnanx later I was better. I just can't continue on with this stress. I'm going to die of an aniexty attack or a heart attack or stroke from the high BP.
Oh and I'm so excited that my cousin from OH is coming down in 2 weeks to visit his brother Neil. I haven't seen Brent in forever. I use to think he was a cutie (for a male cousin and not in a gross way... okay people) and I'm sure he still is but from what I've seen he doesn't have much hair left. I'd love to see him but I'm in a perdicament. I was going that same weekend anyway to my Grandmother's house to go through her things and take what I wanted. So I mentioned to dad about going over to Atlanta when I got finished and seeing Neil, Brent, etc. and he just about flipped out. You see in my family my dad and Grandmother will sometimes get real excited or passionate about something and their voices will get real loud and I don't know if freak out is a good term but something. This is where I get it from.
So Dad is wondering how in the world I am going to be able to do all I have to do at Grandmother's and head over to ATL which isn't that far from her house. Then he's wondering how I'm going to lug everything back to his house. Blah blah blah. Then he gets in his head that they should all go over to Grandmother's house instead, etc. I'm also told that it would just be too much for them to watch the kids for 1 stinking night and I have to take the kids with me if I go.
#1 I know Brent hasn't seen Grandmother in years too and she'd just die if she could see him but at the same time he rarely sees his own brother and will only be down for 2 days. And in all honesty neither of my cousins are that close with Grandmother. It's not that they don't like each other but she has to realize they don't have a lot in common. It's just different. I can't explain it but Dad gets it.
#2 I want to go and see them and maybe go to dinner or do something. I don't ever get to be adult like and do things of that nature. I'd love to see all of them and hang out in a non-Thanksgiving environment. I know that they have Jonathan and all but I can't really take the kids with me and it be that easy. The more I go to thinking about it if I went I'd just probably get a hotel room and spend Saturday night there and drive back on Sunday to B'ham. Well if I have to take the kids having them in a hotel room is not the best situation especially since it'll be me by myself w/out Lee.
I guess it seemed like a good idea but it's just not going to work. Sometimes I get frustrated because I have no family down here and it's always me and the kids. I love them to pieces but you know it'd be nice to have Grandparents around who could take over for a night or two. So although we'll be in B'ham they just don't think they can handle them. For one night. I'm sad because I thought it'd be a chance to hang out with family and act like adults. I guess my chance to finally be an adult will be when my kids are gone out of the house. But by then I'll just be broke because I will have paid for college and a wedding and who knows what else.
I guess this is my little pitty party for myself. I just wish things were different sometimes. I wish that I was able to enjoy certain things.
Oh and Jessica called me last night because they are trying to plan our 2nd Annual girls weekend. Well Anne works for the airlines and in March she will be eligible for 4 free plane tickets roundtrip to anywhere. Great right? I mean instead of having it down here we can go anywhere. Anywhere in the states. Great right? No. Lee can't take off work once the "season" hits and there is no way mom can come down here and help with the kids for me to go. So just like last year when it got all screwed up b/c my baby sitter canceled on me that Friday night and I missed dinner w/ the girls and staying at the hotel that I paid for all by myself. Ugh.
My pitty party is over. I'm done with my sulking. I'm just going to go figure out dinner and the kids now. I haven't eaten all day. I'm hungry. Bye!
Monday, February 05, 2007
I Am So Weird
Yes, I am strange. But then when you take into consideration I was raised by Joe and Joy Godfrey and I got my DNA from Brad and Bobbi, well it's a given I would be a strange cookie. I've been on my bargain shopping again. I'm so retarded. It's like a high you get. If one could on imagine what I've gotten for free (seriously) and made money off of (so not kidding) you'd just die.
CVS has right now if you spend $40 on certain items then you get $20 in ECB back to use on a future purchase. Well I've got these coupons for $2.50/2 Huggies wipes and they just so happen to scan on just 1 tub of wipes. The wipes are on sale for $2.50 and are included in the deal. So things don't look fishy I bought 14 wipes and 2 packs of Ziploc bags (and of course had $1 off coupons for them) so my total before coupons was an even $40 and after coupons was $3. Well I had a coupon for save $10 off $50 at CVS. So to bring my total over $50 I did the Crest deal when you spent $15 on Crest get $5 in ECB. So I bought 8 tubes of toothpaste for $16 and used 8 $1 coupons so now my total was $11. Not too make it look too bad (and that I was robbing the store) I threw in the B1G1 free $2.99 Q-tips. My total after all said and done was a little over $5.
Ain't I cool? AND I'M GETTING $20 IN ECB BACK ON TOP OF THAT!!!
I can only do it 1x per card so I'm collecting extra CVS cards and will do this deal a total of 7 times. Yes, I'm nuts but think of all of the wipes. Free wipes. Thing of the free $20. Think of what I can do with it. Oh my gosh! I'm happy happy happy!
Gonna run and smile b/c my CVS card shows I have saved over $1400 since Jan. 1st and I've spent only $150. yeah, I'm good. And that also includes my prescriptions. I'm strange. Ain't it grand?
CVS has right now if you spend $40 on certain items then you get $20 in ECB back to use on a future purchase. Well I've got these coupons for $2.50/2 Huggies wipes and they just so happen to scan on just 1 tub of wipes. The wipes are on sale for $2.50 and are included in the deal. So things don't look fishy I bought 14 wipes and 2 packs of Ziploc bags (and of course had $1 off coupons for them) so my total before coupons was an even $40 and after coupons was $3. Well I had a coupon for save $10 off $50 at CVS. So to bring my total over $50 I did the Crest deal when you spent $15 on Crest get $5 in ECB. So I bought 8 tubes of toothpaste for $16 and used 8 $1 coupons so now my total was $11. Not too make it look too bad (and that I was robbing the store) I threw in the B1G1 free $2.99 Q-tips. My total after all said and done was a little over $5.
Ain't I cool? AND I'M GETTING $20 IN ECB BACK ON TOP OF THAT!!!
I can only do it 1x per card so I'm collecting extra CVS cards and will do this deal a total of 7 times. Yes, I'm nuts but think of all of the wipes. Free wipes. Thing of the free $20. Think of what I can do with it. Oh my gosh! I'm happy happy happy!
Gonna run and smile b/c my CVS card shows I have saved over $1400 since Jan. 1st and I've spent only $150. yeah, I'm good. And that also includes my prescriptions. I'm strange. Ain't it grand?
Thursday, February 01, 2007
The End of the Month Is Over!!!
Can I just say I am so glad the end of the month is over. I have been so overworked that I am mentally and physically exhausted. I just don't think I can continue on. I think today was the day that I snapped. Not neccesarily in a psycho way but in a well... okay way.
I spoke w/ Terri the manager in the Jax office and she could tell in my voice how burned out I am. She was in agreeance that I need a warm body in the office to help me out. There is only so much she can do remotely and what I need is someone in the office. She offered to call Bill (our FL manager) and tell him that from her stand point I need someone. She's on the OP side of things and of course Bill (who I honestly cannot stand or deal with) just doesn't get our side of things. So he tells Terri he isn't going to hire someone and for me to utilize her blah blah freaking blah! He told her he was going to call me. Does the scardy cat call me? No. He calls Bob, my marketer in my office, and rants and raves to him. Can you even comprehend that Bill suggestion is for BOB to help me in the office? Ummm... okay the major ADD marketer who honestly doesn't have a freaking clue about what I do help me out w/ all of the detail stuff. Okay.
Then Bob starts making all of these brillant suggestions such as having one of the girls in Jax transfer and move to our office. What the hell is he thinking? Why not just hire someone? They wouldn't move anyway and on top of that I wouldn't want them in my office. I like them and all but to work daily together, not gonna happen. We at least all agree that our clients need to only have me as a point of contact so everything is consistant. So his great idea is for me to send all of the orders to Jax, they call the customers but give them my phone number to call back, Jax processes everything, then when our clients need something I have to call Jax find a status then call the client back then call Jax back to set it all up. Okay, that makes perfect sense. Terri agrees that doing that would be harder than me just killing myself doing it all myself.
Then I am so freaking mad b/c I emailed the owner of the company, and a guy I really respect and like, to remind him about my pay increase and new contract and to ensure it was on the 31st paycheck. I do this before payroll had to be in. He didn't get the message until after the deadline. He emailed me on Saturday telling me he'd take care of it. Okay I got my paystub on Monday in the mail and it was the old amount. I email Jerry on Monday to tell him this. I don't hear a thing. I do know that he is one of the rare ppl in the company that doesn't have a Blackberry, etc. and only checks emails at home but dang. I finally emailed him again and did a return receipt so I could know he got it. I knew he was back in the office b/c Terri had spoken with him.
To make a long story short Jerry told me I could hire someone no questions asked. They've fixed my salary so on the 15th I'll be getting so much money I won't know what to do with. I'm just old and tired now. I'm ready to just lie down.
I spoke w/ Terri the manager in the Jax office and she could tell in my voice how burned out I am. She was in agreeance that I need a warm body in the office to help me out. There is only so much she can do remotely and what I need is someone in the office. She offered to call Bill (our FL manager) and tell him that from her stand point I need someone. She's on the OP side of things and of course Bill (who I honestly cannot stand or deal with) just doesn't get our side of things. So he tells Terri he isn't going to hire someone and for me to utilize her blah blah freaking blah! He told her he was going to call me. Does the scardy cat call me? No. He calls Bob, my marketer in my office, and rants and raves to him. Can you even comprehend that Bill suggestion is for BOB to help me in the office? Ummm... okay the major ADD marketer who honestly doesn't have a freaking clue about what I do help me out w/ all of the detail stuff. Okay.
Then Bob starts making all of these brillant suggestions such as having one of the girls in Jax transfer and move to our office. What the hell is he thinking? Why not just hire someone? They wouldn't move anyway and on top of that I wouldn't want them in my office. I like them and all but to work daily together, not gonna happen. We at least all agree that our clients need to only have me as a point of contact so everything is consistant. So his great idea is for me to send all of the orders to Jax, they call the customers but give them my phone number to call back, Jax processes everything, then when our clients need something I have to call Jax find a status then call the client back then call Jax back to set it all up. Okay, that makes perfect sense. Terri agrees that doing that would be harder than me just killing myself doing it all myself.
Then I am so freaking mad b/c I emailed the owner of the company, and a guy I really respect and like, to remind him about my pay increase and new contract and to ensure it was on the 31st paycheck. I do this before payroll had to be in. He didn't get the message until after the deadline. He emailed me on Saturday telling me he'd take care of it. Okay I got my paystub on Monday in the mail and it was the old amount. I email Jerry on Monday to tell him this. I don't hear a thing. I do know that he is one of the rare ppl in the company that doesn't have a Blackberry, etc. and only checks emails at home but dang. I finally emailed him again and did a return receipt so I could know he got it. I knew he was back in the office b/c Terri had spoken with him.
To make a long story short Jerry told me I could hire someone no questions asked. They've fixed my salary so on the 15th I'll be getting so much money I won't know what to do with. I'm just old and tired now. I'm ready to just lie down.
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