Pathetic Sounding

Okay, so I realize that I sounded really pathetic last night when I wrote my post. I guess though it's okay to vocalize when you're lonely and just going through hard times. Reading it though makes me just feel pathetic. I have to get over it. The one thing I don't want it pity from others.

I got a very nice email from an old friend of mine today. I haven't seen her since we graduated from high school but she's such a great person and she lives in B'ham. We had chatted back and forth on Facebook back when I was pregnant looking to move here. She read my post today and reached out to me. It was so sweet of her. I didn't expect anyone who even lives here to read this or even have an adult outing (okay, so the kids will be going too but there is a nursery for them) but if it gets me out to reconnect with old friends and make new friends then I'm glad I posted what I did.

We are going next Wednesday to a mom's social (?) at her church. I know it's for mom's but I don't know if there is a speaker or what. To be honest I didn't ask too many details but that's okay. It'd be great to see her after all these years. I've seen pictures of her and she still looks as great as she did in high school. She also has two adorable little girls. I also felt much better about her too when I found out she was going to CVS so she could use her $10 ECB that were expiring today. A girl after my own heart. I remember having $130 in one ECB to use at one time. It was INSANE. Thanks to those days back in October '06 I haven't had to purchase any tampons or panty liners since then. Yes, we all know I'm nuts. I am well aware.

So today Jackson and I went and looked at 4 houses to potentially rent. I really liked 1 of the 1st two. It was built last year and the people moved back to their home country. It's got hardwood floors and a 2 car garage and is in a very nice neighborhood. It's about 8-10 mins from my parents house. The other 2 houses we saw and that I liked are about 15 mins away from them. They are in a really nice huge subdivision. The houses are both brand new and because of the economy the builder is renting them out. I think I like the slightly smaller house because it has all the bedrooms on one floor and it has a small dining room that I can use as an office. The neighborhood just seems so far out. I know it's only about two miles from the Wal-Mart but still it just feels far out.

I know I don't have to make a decision right away but it would be nice to find something. I love my parents very much but we desperately need our own space. I am also pretty certain I misspelled desperately but I'm not going to spell check it tonight. I always seem to spell it wrong. Oh well. Tonight is not the night to learn how to spell it correctly. Poor spelling is what happens when you are not taught phonics in kindergarten.

Jackson loved looking at the houses. He has gone around B'ham with me and mom so many times and we have to explain to him we can't go into the houses until we have an appointment. He was thrilled to know that we had appointments today. He thought it was a lot of fun. I have to admit I enjoyed it too however it would've been nicer of all of the houses weren't freezing cold and if I didn't have to lug Avery around in her carrier.

Oh and what is up with this cold weather? It's ridiculously cold. I am really tempted to pack up and go back to Florida if this weather keeps it up. I don't like cold weather at all. Ahhhh! I've got the heater on right now but of course I have a small fan on too. These rooms do not have ceiling fans and it drives me crazy. So I have a small fan that packs a big punch going on right now. It's not on us directly and to be honest I'd probably have it off tonight but I like the background noise. It helps keep Avery asleep.

She has her first Dr. appointment in Alabama on Monday. We are seeing a pediatrician at St Vincents. She will be getting her 4 month shots oh about 3 weeks late but that's okay. We'll also be getting a referral to a pediatric cardiologist here in B'ham. She needs to have a new EKG and ultrasound run on her heart. I don't think that it's closing on its own but that's without anything to back it up. I just didn't see an improvement on her other u/s and when I was reading through her Dr. notes when I got her medical records for the move it actual increased from being in my belly to 2 months. I just pray that surgery is not necessary.

So I'm going to try and drift off to sleep now. I have had a really hard time sleeping lately. I think I might be a tad depressed and that's what is causing it. I have a Dr. appt for myself on May 7th which I will probably change b/c that is way too long to have to wait to get into a Dr. I need my meds checked, refills and I want a full work up on my blood work, etc. I want to make sure that my kidneys are doing okay. I also want to make sure that my heart is okay. I had an u/s done on it during my pregnancy and my Dr. said there were some minor issues that I didn't need to worry about then but after the baby and to be honest I never asked her what they were. I should have but I didn't. So I'm sure I'll get another one. I just want to make sure I'm healthy. I can't go dying on my kids now.

So goodnight. Sleep tight! Oh and I cannot wait until American Idol results show tomorrow night. My move loves American Idol (yeah, I was shocked too) and we have a standing date for AI each week. It's a lot of fun and i look forward to it each week.