When Is Enough Enough?

I'm beginning to wonder when my life will say enough is enough and things will calm down? Seriously. I can't sleep at night. I know that this far along that I shouldn't expect to sleep peacefully but I'm hardly able to sleep at all. I've been taking Tylenol PM to help with it. Last night instead of taking just 1 I took 2. I still woke up every hour. For some reason I can sleep for a whole two hours or so once 5 rolls around. This morning Jackson woke up a little before 7. Yes, it was dreadful. To make matters worse I just felt awful. I had the throbbing headache and just felt bad. I got up and took my meds first thing as usual.

Around 9:30 I was still feeling badly. I had been lying in bed the entire time except to take my meds, pee and get Jackson milk. I took my BP and it was 160/103. Now I know BP isn't just based on strenuous activity but you would think that with the lack of movement it'd be down. I continued to take it through the morning and it declined slightly but not a major difference. It's past 7pm and I'm still feeling awful and it's up and that's w/ taking my other 2 doses so far today.

So this afternoon Jackson comes and lies down with me in my bed. I was exhausted and would have loved to take a nap. We were watching Little Bill and before I knew it he had fallen asleep. I dozed off for about 20 mins. Then I had Mackenzie come in and tell me that she had a problem. She used her cast as a holding place for the top to a marker. Well.... it got pushed down in her cast and she couldn't get it out. There it was. My nap as I knew it was over for good. I try everything to get it out. It was absolutely impossible. I tried off and on for 2 hours. I didn't know what else to do but to take her to the ER for them to get it out. No, it wasn't an emergency but the cap was hurting her because it was already so tight in there to begin with.

After consulting with my mom and Lee we were off to the ER. I felt stupid going in there but it had to be done. We were in and out of there in 30 mins. They couldn't even get it out with their little tools so out came the cast saw. They sawed it in half reached in and got the cap out. They then wrapped it tightly with ace bandages. Tomorrow I get the pleasure of calling the orthopedic Dr. and taking her in to see him. She is suppose to get it off on Friday so I guess we'll see if they put another one on her or let her keep it off.

This is where I'm just wondering when my life can stop being so complicated. I feel as if every time I turn around I have something new happening. I just want a break. First of all I wish I didn't have to ever see the inside of a hostpital again. Now we all know that's not possible. I have to be at Sacred Heart in the morning at 10 for my NST (non-stress test) and lab work. I'm sure as it's been Avery will be just fine. I just honestly don't want to end up on another stretcher headed to Pensacola.

So this has been my Sunday. I'm tired and still have this headache. Will tomorrow prove to be better? Let's hope it is.