It's Over

Well... it looks like this is it for our little angel. I got my progesterone levels and they weren't good. I went to the Dr.'s office and she sat down with me around noon today. She had me go for one last blood test but she said based on the numbers and her experience there is almost no hope for him/her to make it. Not even progesterone supplements will help. She did prescribe it to me if it made me feel better though. It doesn't. I thought it would.

I am going to meet with her on Monday when the tests come back for our plan of action. She said it can take 2-4 weeks for the baby to release itself. And based on the age of the baby it happened the day before Thanksgiving. I just want my breasts to stop hurting and to stop craving food and to stop feeling pregnant. So we'll see if the baby starts coming out over the weekend. I sure hope so. I feel awful saying this but I just want it out. It's gone and will never be here fully formed. I want to feel normal again.

Hopefully it'll happen naturally soon because if it doesn't then I'll opt for the D&C. I can't believe this. It doesn't seem real.