War Damn Eagle!

Oh my gosh! How great was the game tonight? So freaking awesome. I thought for sure that we'd loose against #4 Florida. I started watching the game with the kids and we all got in to the game (until they passed out in the middle of the game). Man oh man. I was screaming and yelling while on the phone with Jana. Nothing is better than watching the Gator fans sitting in the stands so somber. Beating them at home. Sweet victory. But Tim Tebow is still a cutie patootie.

I think we're buying a boat. We've talked about it and Jackson has already demanded that we buy him a boat so he can go find sharks. Lee found one today on his way home from picking up breakfast. It's nothing big but a good first boat. The kids are dying for us to get it. We have someone looking at the boat for us tomorrow and if it's all good then it's ours. Of course after we write them a check.

I'm so glad that I'm finally feeling much better. Lee called me from work tonight and he thinks he's come down with what I had. I certainly hope not. It was not a fun thing to go through. He was off yesterday and we ate at Cheeseburger in Paradise. I have to say I was disappointed and it wasn't good at all. The service was awful and the food was not good either. Mackenzie's spoon for her mac 'n cheese had food dried on it and she only discovered it after she had eaten some food. Then while Lee was looking for her a new spoon, since none of the 4 servers he tried to get the attention of noticed him, she was eating with a fork and found something nasty in her food. Yeah, not a good time.

We ended up getting a $30 GC for there to eat again but there is no way I'm going to do that whatsoever. I won't eat there again. Oh and we ate at the new Carrabba's a few weeks back and I didn't like the food there either. It just wasn't worth the money.

Now I could eat at Lee's restaurant over and over again (and we do, about once a week) and you can't beat a free meal.

I got another deal closing for October. I am very excited. This next week I am going to be working on marketing myself to old clients. It's very exciting to get all of the things together. I think that the opportunity out there is limitless. I cannot say enough how great it is to essentially be my own boss. Well... except for Lee. He told me today he wanted to see my reports for the past week. Yeah, okay, whatever. I'm free from that. It's liberating. It's also a good feeling when you have clients who will follow you and use you no matter what. They like you that much and enjoy working with you. I take that as a very high compliment.

I have got to clean the house tomorrow. I felt so out of it this morning and afternoon. I was so exhausted. I was shakey this morning and I had even eaten some food. I had to go out to Destin to run something to the office and meet someone. I wasn't gone long but I was just cranky and not feeling good. When I got home Lee had been so involved in football he had the kids in Jackson's room and it was totally destroyed.

It's very frustrating that he can't focus on anything and pay attention to them or us as a whole. Whenever we go out to dinner he is constantly focusing on something other than us. The same goes for in the car. He told me last night at dinner when I was complaining about him focusing totally on the football game that he rarely pays attention to us. He said that his therapist thinks he might be ADD. I totally think he might be. He has such a hard time focusing. It's not fun having to try and get and keep his attention.

He's been seeing Thomas, his therapist, for about a month now. I cannot begin to describe the difference it has made in our marriage and relationship. I think it is a good thing for him to be able to talk to someone about everything that he's been feeling for so long. I knew that alot of the way he acts is a result of things from way back when he was still at home and because of his dad's death and then his mom's death last year. It has really helped him to open up to someone. The medicine that the psychiatrist has prescribed helps too. I'm just very glad at the forward progress that has been made.

Marriage is not easy. Having kids isn't easy. It's certainly not any easier when you have spouses that work totally different hours. And of course the baggage from the past that's pent up doesn't help. I am a huge believer in therapists. I love my psychologist. He is so wonderful. I wish Lee could see him but he can't because it would be a conflict of interest. But Lee loves Thomas and is very comfortable with him. I am so glad that they have a good rapport and that Lee liked him. I know it's very important to be comfortable with the person you are having to spill your guts to.

On Tuesday our desk/hutch come and I am sooooo happy!!! I also can't wait to order the new computer for my office. That is so exciting. I'm tired of taking the laptop with me everywhere I go. I need to have paintings put up in our living room or something put on the walls. It's ridiculous that we've been here for 18 months and nothing is up. It echos so badly in here. I just don't know what theme/style I want. I decided I definitely don't want a beach theme. No beach/water pictures. Something totally different but I'm at a loss for what to put up.

Okay, I'm so just rambling. I've got all of these thoughts just running through my head. I cannot stop them. Hehe. It's going to be another night where I can't sleep. I can tell it already.