Panic at the House

I go up this morning (thanks in part to Kenzie) and got up to take my meds. Yes, it is very sad. Let me list the meds I had pulled out: Norvasc (BP meds), Lisinipril (another BP med), some antibiotic, Effexor (my anti-anxiety/depression), and Xanax (very small dosage every day and helps not only w/ my aniexty but BP). Wait... where is my Adderall? OMG! I can't find it. I search everywhere. I'm trying not to panic. But this is my Adderall. If I don't take it I won't be able to focus and will seriously be all jittery and will be so spaced out. Only one time did I not take it 1st thing in the morning b/c I had a Dr.'s appt. that morning to get it refilled. It was awful. Just ask Bonnie. I was not able to focus or pay attention to one thing. Eekk! I didn't want that to happen again.

I then remembered that last night when I went to the grocery store to pick up ground beef that I may have taken it out while looking for my wallet (that is another store, so white trash). I ran out to the car and it was there. I've never been so happy before in my life. Okay, that's an overstatement but you catch my drift.

Yesterday I worked on laundry all day long. Yes, the entire day. Folding it, putting it up. It was never ending. So depressing. I started cleaning up and putting up other things in the meantime. Before I realized it it was late in the afternoon. I was so tired and I looked down and from all the up and down and standing my ankles were so swollen. I just had to take a break. I put the few things I hadn't folded yet in the play pen and yes that's our laundry holder.

I take Jackson in my room around 3:20 and tell him it's time to take a nap. He doesn't want to but I can tell he's tired. I tell him if he leaves the bed I'm going to spank him. So he half way hangs off the bed for a ltitle bit. Then he crawls up on me. The phone rings and it's Jana. She's stuck in traffic b/c of a horrible wreck, the same one that Lee was stuck in earlier. I looked it up later and there was a fatality so that's why it was taking so long. She said after she finally made it home from picking up her car from my office and after Carrie got off to work that she'd come over. I was about to fall asleep. I could tell. We get off the phone and I pass out just like Jackson did.

The phone is rining and I wake up at 6 something to Jana calling. She's on her way to my house. I woke up so suddenly and started panicking about my house. I was no where where I wanted to be. I also needed to wake myself up. So Jana banana gets here and I decide to run to the store and get some beef to make dinner. I grab my purse and run up to Kelly's. I get there and realize that I have no wallet. Yup, no wallet. Now this is the world's biggest white trash grocery store so I shouldn't have felt bad about what I did. I go through my purse and find a little over $5 in change. I know that beef can sometimes be expensive per pound. I go in there bravely and thank goodness found a lb for $1.24. I counted out my change while I was in the meat department. When I checked out I had my money ready and handed it to him and just walked out w/ no receipt.

Mortified. I felt trashy. Like I was scraping change just to pay for beef.

So we get home and start cleaning. Jackson, Mackenzie and Jana helped me. We cleaned up more of the kitchen. Vacuumed the den while dinner was cooking. Jackson had spilled a box of noodles in the pantry earlier in the day and I thought I'd gotten them all but I was wrong. Jana was cleaning out my pantry when she discovers them. She starts sweeping stuff out. Later in the night Jackson did the cutest thing. I was with the baby feeding him and Jana tells me to come here. My little cleaning obsessed boy had taken the dust pan and broom and sweet up all of the noodles and trash and had it all up. It was sooooooo stinking cute. I told him to keep the pan lifted up while walking to the trash can. We helped him get it in. So sweet and cute.

Mackenzie had already gone into her room and passed out. Jackson and I walked Jana and the baby out. Jackson got in her front seat like he wanted to go with her. We thought it was just because he didn't think he had to sit in a car seat. I told him bye and walked off and he started waving to me and blowing me kisses. It was breaking our hearts. He couldn't go w/ her and it was so sweet but he wanted to leave me? How sad and dreadful. So I tell him he can only go if he sits in his car seat. At first he goes in the back and says no. Then I pick him up so we can go inside but he thought I was going to get his carseat. He really wanted to go home with her. It was so sweet and cute.

I love my kids. They mean the world to me. I dont' know what I'd do without them. They drive me a little batty sometimes and my house stays a disaster but they are my world. They can make me smile on my saddest days. Kids can truly be a saving grace. Along with my Jana. With Lee working so much she has helped me so much lately. It's nice to have good friends like that.

We are very fortunate. I thank God for what I have in my life. You should too.