Lawdy Lawdy

Can things get any more hectic or just plain nuts? I picked Jackson up today and Candy said that he cried all day long and he took a real short nap and that was it. The entire way home he didn't feel well. It's obvious. You can see it in his eyes. Mackenzie is also feeling horrible. Her throat hurts, she's still coughing, eyes matted up this morning, you get the idea.

So I pull up to the house and Kenzie gets out to go play with her friends. I'm checking her face out to make sure it's clean before she goes and Jackson starts crying. Next thing I know my son is throwing up from his car seat. I'm talking like 4 or 5 good spurts followed by some little spurts. Yes, puke flowing from the bottom of the carseat. I unbuckle it and carry it/him to the front door and begin cleaning him up.

Man oh man. After the bath we went into my room and he just wasn't happy. He was so tired and just didn't feel well. He finally fell asleep. Mackenzie and the neighborhood girls were jumping on the trampoline. Jackson woke up crying and I went back to comfort him. I had to stay right next to him for him to not be completely in tears. The next thing I know Breann is busting in my house telling me that Mackenzie is crying b/c Nate, her brother, punched Kenzie in the stomach.

I could hear her screaming so I leave Jackson, and boy was he mad, and rush out to her. I asked the girls where Nate was and of course he ran to his house. I started yelling for him to no avail. I asked her what happened and she said it wasn't an accident and the other confirmed it. One thing about Kenzie is she doesn't lie to me about that kind of thing. I trust her.

I go into the house and the phone rings. It's Lee. He's all cheery and I tell him I have to go and he asks how my day has been. I said something about Jackson puking everywhere and then Mackenzie getting punched and how I was getting dressed to go kick Nate's butt. While I'm putting on my strapless bra in walks 2 of the girls. Yes, it was such a sight. Me in capri jeans and a bra half way on.

I grab Jackson and he and I drive up the street to Kimberly's. I get up there and their door is open and Nate is watching TV. I give him an evil look and tell him he needs to go get his mom. Kimberly comes out and I'm so furious and have a sick baby with me and I just start talking. I told him that it was my understanding that he punched my baby girl on the trampoline. He denied hitting her that he fell on her. Which yes, could be plausible, but she doesn't lie and why would he run if it was an accident? I called him out on this. I told him and his mom (Kimberly) that I understand kids play rough and little fights happen, etc. and even my daughter isn't perfect, but under no circumstances does he need to punching my daughter.

He started tearing up and Kimberly was visibly upset with him. he apologized to her. Yes, my little Kenzie comes slowly walking up the street to us. Then I told Kimberly that this is very awkward for me to speak with her about but that Nate had told Mackenzie's friends that she was fat. Mackenzie has been asking me for 2 weeks or so when I was going to talk to Kimberly about it. It hurt her feelings so. It made me want to kill the kid for hurting her.

Kimberly was pissed. She called Nate, Kenzie and me inside. You see Kenzie had heard about his words from the greatest little girl on our street. I thought that he wouldn't have a clue about what he said, etc. Oh man he did. Kimberly asked if he had said any hurtful and bad words about anyone. He shook his head yes. She asked him what and he says "fat". He knew what he had said. He didn't have to think hard about it. He hurt her. Hurt her to where she's cried about it. He told his mom that he can't control what he says. BS

I told Kimberly later how it was hard for me to talk to her about that because I didn't want any hard feelings. I'll tell you this though if that boy touches my child with one finger or with his words ever again I'm going to hurt him. It cuts through me like a knife when I know either of my children are hurt. I hate it. I wish I could take all of the pain in the word so they wouldn't feel any of it. Now I know the love my parents have felt for me.

so that's pretty much been my week so far. It's been crappy. It's going to be even worse come tomorrow. I made the kids appts for the Dr. yet again for tomorrow morning at 9:30. I don't know how to manager it all right now. I'm very overwhelmed. I cannot miss any work. None at all. It's imperative that I be there tomorrow. I don't know how I can be. Mackenzie was throwing up tonight from coughing. She threw up on my kitchen floor and sink. I've got Jackson who is very sick and cranky and stuck to my side. It's not fun. I'm ready for Lee to be home. I think having the moral support would make a huge difference. Jana is out of town for her newphew's birth and not being able to talk to her also is hard.

I feel a little lost this week. I wish my mom lived close and could help out with the kids. It's frustrating. I'm all they've got right now. My job isn't in jepoardy but it's as if I can't afford to miss tomorrow. Yes, I could try and work with them in my office. Yeah, whatever, not gonna work with BOTH of them and when they're both sick. I could come home and work but what if I need info from a file or something? I won't have that information. What if I have to overnight a package. I can't print it out here. It's just too much and on top of that I'd have to go into town just to drop it in FedEx anyway.

Gosh, I don't know what to do. It's not fun. Can I cry now? Seriously. I need a good cry. It might help me for stress purposes. I'm on 2 meds for the BP now so this will be a test to see if it's really working.

And aren't those pics of Mackenzie just darling? I just love my babies. They're wonderful. They make me smile. I'm going to go to sleep now. Try not to have a panic attack tonight. Whoo hoo!