Are those bald spots?

Yes, bald spots on my head from pulling my hair out. Okay, not really but it's how I've felt lately. Between work and the kids and Lee being gone, well, I'm just ready for life to go back to normal. I know that with Lee's different work schedules we don't really have a "normal" schedule but it's better than what we have now. Lee warned me that I won't see much of him in the beginning but I don't care. I told him that I want to just wake up next to him. I don't care about the snoring or his hot sweaty legs drapping on me in his sleep. Just knowing he is here and in the house. Just to be able to see him for a fleeting moment. I know I will treasure each time we spend time each other more. I know it's killing the kids. Jackson constantly is going around the house saying "daddy at work". He has tried to call Lee a few times of the past few days but when Lee has tried to speak to him on 2 occassions he won't talk to him. I don't get it. I hope he doesn't shun him when he comes home.

I got Mackenzie a swimsuit today. She has her field day on Friday and was in need of a new one. I lucked out Beall's had their swimsuits 40% off and today it was an additional 15% off of the sales price. It was very cheap. It's adorable and came with a little skirt. When I pulled it out in the car today she gasped "mom, it is soooo cute!". That is definitely a good reaction to get from your 6 year old. I have a feeling it won't last forever. I can remember mom buying me something or suggesting a piece of clothing and just groaning. I think every kid does that.

I'm exhausted. I don't want to go to bed yet. I feel that if I go to bed too early then I've wasted my entire day. Get up, go to work, go home, go to sleep and it all starts all over again. I think I also feel blah because there isn't anything good on TV. Yes, I know Law & Order is on but I've seen every episode of every spin-off at least a dozen times already. At least I can look forward to Greys Anatomy and The Office tomorrow night. I just love The Office. That show has me in stitches. Love the dry humor. Well, except the stupid British dry humor. I don't get it. Seriously.

This is a random little piece of my mind, but this has to do with the wonderful Alabama Legislature's decision to pass a resolution to "Apologize for the involvement that Alabama had in slavery". What was just stupid was the comment that one of the legislature's said about how he can finally put this behind him and others by issuing the apology. I'm so sorry for the transgressions of our great-great-great-great-great-great-great... (get the idea) realtives, but how long can a group of people use the past and something that they were never apart of and never lived to even see those who experienced it think they need an apology? It's ridiculous. It's stupid ignorant people like Alvin Holmes that continues to stir up these issues.

Living in Montgomery it was always filled with racial tensions. Living in FL now I see how freshing it is to live without those tensions. The tensions in Montgomery were not just one sided. I truly believe that it's people like Alvin Holmes that use race to just stir up people. If they kept their mouthes shut then things wouldn't be stirred up like a hornet's nest.

Okay, I've said my peace. I feel better now. Okay, not really but enough to finally go to sleep.