Why oh Why?

Can someone please tell me when things will get better? Will someone please tell me why the bad things in life keep happening over and over again in different variations but to the same person/people? Do any of us ever get a break? Does it ever get better? I'm beginning to think not. I am getting real tired of this game called Life. It's not like the board game where you get to choose the color of your car and pick your driver and then you spin. Hmmm... what'd I get? Oh I get a diploma. Payday is $5000. Spin again, oh right on! I get married! What? I'm now having twins and then adopting a kid? No, this life isn't fair. I guess my dad always says it best when I say "it's not fair", he replies "No Rebekah, the fair is in October".

I'm just ready for things to change. What is it going to take? A miracle? An act of God? Yes, probably an act of God. Does he really listen though? Of course I believe he does but I wonder what his thought process is with certain situations. Sometimes things are so hard on people that don't have a Biblical foundation that it pushes them away and to blame him. How does that makes sense? Those that are vulnerable are pushed further away? Then does that make those around him liable for going further and not drawing the person to God in their time of need? If they don't is that persons blood on their hands?

I know people say "God won't give you more than you can handle", but seriously, can that really be the case. I am just wondering how much one can bare. Just wondering.

I also think that my 6 year old is wiser than I am. She is so smart and intuitive it's scary. I think I should be going to her for advice. She's such a special little girl. Oh and she lost another tooth too. Mrs. Bell pulled it out for her yesterday. She was very disappointed when the tooth fairly only gave her $2. I guess she was spoiled w/ the $20 on the first tooth, then $20 the next day b/c she lost the first $20 by taking it to school when she wasn't suppose to and someone stole it. Then I think she's gotten $5 each time. The Mr. Toothfairy put in the money this time. Usually he's a high roller but I think he was out of dough.

I'm going to run and finish out my day. I hope Lee calls me soon and we can chat. I'm sure I'll pick up the kids and just go crazy once again. Oh, not b/c of the kids but it feels as if all I do is go to work, pick up the kids, bathe, feed 'em and get ready for bed and sleep and start all over again the next day. Never ending cycle. I don't even have enough time for my free deals. It's very sad.