Only 5 Weeks and 5 Days to Go

So it has been yet another long day. Too long. I am stretched way too thin. I have no support structure here right now. This week is going to be so grueling and with the office move I am going nuts. I have an employee who I truly thinks is semi-lazy. She complains non-stop about everything. I asked her to box up some very very light things today when I had to go to a closing. This is so she wouldn't just sit around the office while I was gone and play in the internet. I feel that I have to work harder just to keep her busy. I am kicking myself in the butt for hiring her in the first place because her boyfriend is the son of the lady who keeps Jackson. It's a real difficult position to be in. I honestly feel that I would be better off by myself in the office.

I do have to admit that it's hard while Lee's gone. Yesterday I got a phone call from Rick, his wife watches Jackson, and he was calling about a matter with the girls paycheck b/c payroll screwed it up on the 15th but it's being fixed at the end of the month. He calls me asking me if it's resolved and I told him I got an email confirmation from the EVP and payroll guy that it was taken care of. He caught me off guard by calling about it and I had 2 lines going as well and things were crazy. I only answered the phone from the number in the first place b/c I thought it was an emergency w/ Jackson. He told me, yes told me, to fwd the email from my bosses that said the issues was resolved. Me not thinking told me okay when I get a chance. He then got attitude with me and told me that I better have it to him immediately.

I get caught up on the phone and with 2 distaterous closing in PC and he calls again. Gives me serious attitude about why I haven't fwd him the emails yet. I told him that I sent them to *her* and I wasn't thinking earlier but I can't send that information to him. I have to keep things such as that confidential. He continues to argue with me telling me I better send it to him and if I don't then he was going to come up to my office and force me to give it to him. Hold up. This is someone I have a good relationship with. He was completely out of line. I told him that this wasn't between the two of us and he needed to stay out of it that everything has been taken care of. I also told him that it's not my fault that payroll screwed up and not my fault that it's taken this long to get confirmation it's been taken care of for the 30th. He said he was just checking on me because it's his sons girl. Whatever.

It takes a lot to make me cry but the way he spoke to me reduced me to tears. I mean heavy tears. At the end I told him that he didn't need to talk to me so disrespectfully and I didn't deserve it. I began to cry so hard that I just hung up on him. I just couldn't believe that he of all people would talk to me like that. It just happens he asked *her* boyfriend if the payroll was resolved and he told him yes that I had gotten an email and was fwd it to her. He took it upon himself to call. This was a time when I needed Lee. I knew he had just gotten to Dallas and didn't want to burden him. I cried for probably 30 mins. I am still flabbergasted at how badly I was talked down too. I really wish Lee was here to talk about it. I know he'd comfort me.

So now I'm in the perdicament of I can't let her go b/c it might screw up things for Jackson. I can't do that to him. He adores Rick and Candy and that would be devestating to him. So how do I balance it? I have no idea, but I'm scared. I'm scared at how it's all going to pan out.