Insomnia

It is 11:48 and I am wide awake. Do I want to be? Heck no. Last night I couldn't go to sleep to save my life. I got up and got on the computer then laid back down. Got back up and got my lighted mirror and picked at my face. Up and down up and down. I finally got to sleep a little after 3:30. It's awful. I awake this morning to feel as if I've been hit by a train. We all wake up late and it's chaos in the house. We make it out of here at 8:05 and head into town. Mackenzie didn't have school today since it was a teacher in service day and we all had our parent teacher conferences. I drop her off at the after school program and then take Jackson. I then head back for the conference w/ her teacher.

I am blown away by her teachers kind words. Well, not blown away because I am shocked to hear positive things about my child but just how kind they were and all positive. Mackenzie is doing great in school and behaves very well. She listens and is kind and sweet and compassionate. She received a 100 in spelling, 99 in language, 98 in math and S+'s in the rest. Her teacher and I had a great chat. We of course talked of other things as well because everyone knows I'm a talker. She's a little bit younger than me and super sweet and kind. Miss Fritz has done an amazing job teaching 1st grade this year. Mackenzie has just learned so much and has been taught by the best.

I got back to the office after the meeting and I'm feeling sick. Just naseous, etc. and I go to the bathroom and yes, my visitor came, thus me feeling horrible. I started getting real shakey as if my blood sugar had dropped. I eventually left work around 3 and came home. Once I was home I laid down and I'd get these horrible hot flashes off and on and I'd just start sweating. I kept thinking I was going to hurl.

OMG! One of the little neighbor brats came to the house to see if Mackenzie could play. She wasn't home and Lee was p/u the kids for me. I told him that she was still at school and her dad was picking her up. She would be home later this evening. I am not kidding you that less than 30 mins later my doorbell is a ringing again and the dog is barking up a storm AGAIN and it's the same freaking kid at my door. He just wanted to know if Mackenzie was home yet. I don't like being mean to kids, even this one and his bratty sister, because they are young and I honestly don't want to hurt their feelings even though sometimes they need a good knock upside the head. I said "Nate I already told you she wouldn't be home until later tonight and that her dad was bringing her home. His car is not here and she is not home. I am sick and I don't feel well so please do not come to the house again today." I felt horrible after I said it and I didn't yell it or anything but jeez, how many times would he knock?

Seriously, last week I pulled up and he saw me pull up so he came speeding down the street on his bike. I'm sitting in my car gathering my stuff together when he slams the bike down on the pavement and starts beating on my door and ringing the doorbell. Buffett is barking up a storm and upset as can be and he just doesn't stop. I finally get out of the car and go around to the door. He sees me and realizes I'm not inside. What I want to say to him is that it is not appropriate to ring the doorbell and continue to beat on the front door and peer in the frosted glass. Mackenzie knows better and she's only 6. He should know better. He's 2 years older.

I do feel sorry for them because they are home schooled and don't interact with other kids. The sad part is that they behave so unruly that other parents in the neighborhood complain about them. I'm talking about ppl who don't even have kids at home or they have kids 2 and under. It's crazy how they behave and what puzzles me is their mom seems to be strict and firm with them but when she's not around it's a free for all. I thought about talking to the mom but I know her well enough to know she'd hold a grudge against me and get defense and it's not worth it. I've already got one enemy on my street. The white trash lady who can't even afford her house so her white trash mom bought it for her. Yes, the same one who leaves her 4 and 2 year olds unattended at home while she leaves the house and we find the kids playing in the middle of the street. Yes, same one.

We live in a very nice new subdivision. Most of the people are decent and not "eww" except for a few. I have to admit that our yard sometimes has toys left out or this and that but we're not white trash by any means. Leave that to the other lady.

Okay, my period must be making me mean and critical tonight. It's 12:05 AM and I'm going to try and sleep. I'm exhausted but am restless. Good night. Sleep tight.