I Had No Idea

that it was going to be as hard as it was to send Lee off. When he left yesterday I cried so hard. I guess up until he left it hadn't sunk in how long 6 weeks really is. I cried not only for myself but for the kids. Jackson won't be able to comprehend or understand why daddy left and that he IS coming back. It was lonely here last night. I wish Mackenzie was here with me right now.

I was planning on flying out to Dallas Easter weekend, but mom hadn't given me the final ok that she'd watch the kids until now. Now I don't think I am going to go. I checked the flights to book one and since I waited so long I'd end up paying at least $320 and that's a lot of money. :-( It was going to be the perfect weekend too. I was planning on flying out Thursday early evening and I'd have all day Sat. and Sunday. Blah. Oh well, it was fun planning it. I checked very single airline and they've all gone up on their prices. It figures this would happen to me. Only me.

I went out to dinner with Jana and her mom last night. Of course little man Jackson came as well. He's such a cutie patootie. Her mom was hysterical recounting her experience at West Point Stevens in the outlet mall. She kept saying over and over again "Rebekah, I've had a bad day". It was just hysterical. She has this great southern accent and not the uneducated sounding kind, but we're talking the southern charming kind. She's so cute. I had a good time and I think Jackson did too.

I had a horrfic day at work and I can't see it getting any better. It sucks. I am not happy and don't forsee things going more smoothly any time soon. It's the end of the month and we're moving offices. I have no time to breath or take a break. It's not going in my favor. Can I just quit now? If only I could.

I'm not going to hold anything back, but I wish I had someone in the office that had experience and could do things really well like Bonnie did. That's what I need and I don't have it. It sucks. Okay, I'm in a bad mood I guess. I'm going to go before I blow something up.