Myspace

I've had people make fun of me because I have a myspace page. In this day and age I mean almost everyone has one. I mean my mom who is 52 has one (although it's only b/c Elizabeth's page went private and she was trying to get an invite to see it) but still. I have found some more people this weekend that I grew up with and was able to see their pages and their kids. It's great. I think it's a really neat way to connect.

Michael Robison was our youth ministers son while I was growing up. His b'day is the day before mine. We were all great friends and he moved while we were sophmores in high school up to TN. He got married to this girl he met up there and they now have a son Evan and are expecting another kid. Honestly it was hard for me and Jessica and others to imagine him being married to someone who wasn't apart of our group in Montgomery. He looks so happy and it's so great to see him all grown up. I can hardly believe how old we're all getting.

So then I get an invite from Mandy (I don't know if she goes by Mandy now or Amanda) who lived in Montgomery and went to our church for a while and I went to school w/ her in 8th grade. Come to find out Mandy was one of Michael's friends on myspace. Now Mandy's cousin Kirk, I also went to 8th grade with and then high school. He became one of my friends a long time ago. I loved Kirk to death. Funny great guy. I actually think his b'day is the day after mine. Weird. Anyway I didn't even realize Mandy was one of his friends or I would've recognized her.

So last week I found my cousin from my mom's side of the family and sent her a message via myspace. It was nice and fuzzy and all and I haven't talked to her in ummm... 18 years? So I haven't heard back from her at all but that's okay. I don't need to hear from her to have a great life although it'd be nice. And on top of that her picture looks just like my grandmother Avonelle. Except for the hair color but it's just strange looking at her.

So then I was looking at Kirk's page and this girl who is a friend on my cousin's page is on Kirk's page. Ummm... it's a small world. Yes, very small. We're all interconnected.

I'm just wondering how many people I'll end up finding. I feel kind of strange asking people that I sorta knew or barely knew to be my friends although I've learned most people don't feel that way and just send an invite to just about anyone.

I just wanted to give a big thanks to Eileen and Bob for sending money to sponsor Mackenzie for the American Heart Association's Jump Rope for Heart. Brad also sent money in as well. I'm still waiting on Grandmother Godfrey's check and my dad's. Neil... I'm waiting on yours too. :-) I appreciate everyone contributing to her. I hate asking money from people even if it is for a good cause so I appreciate the warm response. Anyone else who wants to send in a donation it is due in by Feb 23rd and you can make out the checks to the American Heart Association. If you don't know my address then send me an email at rebekahussery@yahoo.com.

I think me and the kids are all getting sick from this weather we have been having. I've had a sore throat for a few days and it'll eventually go away during the afternoon but the drainage and the yacking and hacking is so gross. Mackenzie is doing the same exact thing. Jackson this morning sounded congested but I couldn't see anything up there to get out. Well of course on the way in to town this morning he sneezes and this huge hard dark green thing comes flying out. Well it kinda just landed on his check. I gave him a diaper wipe and he tried to wipe it (read: he wouldn't let me do it) and of course he just wiped it to the other side. How nice. So Mackenzie my little trooper cleaned it up for him.

When I got to Candy's house he wanted to take his overalls off so bad. I think he just doesn't like them. She obliged him but when he realized if they were off he had no pants he freaked out and put them back on. He's so odd.

Oh and last night he was so freaking cute. He was in the bed with me and Lee. Lee was watching 24 on the computer and I was just talking and playing w/ Jackson. He all the sudden says "ready... one... two... free" and just jumps on top of my stomach. He has this huge grin on his face and kept saying "again again". I let him even though the palm of his hand would slap my chest but it was just so freaking cute. Lee stopped watching his show and got to be jumped on for a while too.

My kids are just growing up so fast. I'm so glad that they are growing and learning so much but at the same time it makes me a little sad. I mean one day they are going to be so big that they won't want to snuggle with me in the bed. Or say "cheek cheek kiss" and kiss my check with slobber and all. And me the germaphobic loves it. I'll hold Mackenzie in my arms while sitting on the couch and I swear her legs are longer than mine. She's just getting so big. I'm scared to see how tall she's going to be. I just know before long she'll be taller than me. So when that happens does that mean I lose my place as boss?

Well I'm going to head out. My day at work has been extremly stressful and at one point I think I was having a panic attack. I'm still so overwhelmed and it seems impossible to get it all done. I called Jana and just vented and just got it all out of my system. I felt like I couldn't breathe. She told me to take my medicine and of course I didn't and then she said "take it now" so a half a Xnanx later I was better. I just can't continue on with this stress. I'm going to die of an aniexty attack or a heart attack or stroke from the high BP.

Oh and I'm so excited that my cousin from OH is coming down in 2 weeks to visit his brother Neil. I haven't seen Brent in forever. I use to think he was a cutie (for a male cousin and not in a gross way... okay people) and I'm sure he still is but from what I've seen he doesn't have much hair left. I'd love to see him but I'm in a perdicament. I was going that same weekend anyway to my Grandmother's house to go through her things and take what I wanted. So I mentioned to dad about going over to Atlanta when I got finished and seeing Neil, Brent, etc. and he just about flipped out. You see in my family my dad and Grandmother will sometimes get real excited or passionate about something and their voices will get real loud and I don't know if freak out is a good term but something. This is where I get it from.

So Dad is wondering how in the world I am going to be able to do all I have to do at Grandmother's and head over to ATL which isn't that far from her house. Then he's wondering how I'm going to lug everything back to his house. Blah blah blah. Then he gets in his head that they should all go over to Grandmother's house instead, etc. I'm also told that it would just be too much for them to watch the kids for 1 stinking night and I have to take the kids with me if I go.

#1 I know Brent hasn't seen Grandmother in years too and she'd just die if she could see him but at the same time he rarely sees his own brother and will only be down for 2 days. And in all honesty neither of my cousins are that close with Grandmother. It's not that they don't like each other but she has to realize they don't have a lot in common. It's just different. I can't explain it but Dad gets it.

#2 I want to go and see them and maybe go to dinner or do something. I don't ever get to be adult like and do things of that nature. I'd love to see all of them and hang out in a non-Thanksgiving environment. I know that they have Jonathan and all but I can't really take the kids with me and it be that easy. The more I go to thinking about it if I went I'd just probably get a hotel room and spend Saturday night there and drive back on Sunday to B'ham. Well if I have to take the kids having them in a hotel room is not the best situation especially since it'll be me by myself w/out Lee.

I guess it seemed like a good idea but it's just not going to work. Sometimes I get frustrated because I have no family down here and it's always me and the kids. I love them to pieces but you know it'd be nice to have Grandparents around who could take over for a night or two. So although we'll be in B'ham they just don't think they can handle them. For one night. I'm sad because I thought it'd be a chance to hang out with family and act like adults. I guess my chance to finally be an adult will be when my kids are gone out of the house. But by then I'll just be broke because I will have paid for college and a wedding and who knows what else.

I guess this is my little pitty party for myself. I just wish things were different sometimes. I wish that I was able to enjoy certain things.

Oh and Jessica called me last night because they are trying to plan our 2nd Annual girls weekend. Well Anne works for the airlines and in March she will be eligible for 4 free plane tickets roundtrip to anywhere. Great right? I mean instead of having it down here we can go anywhere. Anywhere in the states. Great right? No. Lee can't take off work once the "season" hits and there is no way mom can come down here and help with the kids for me to go. So just like last year when it got all screwed up b/c my baby sitter canceled on me that Friday night and I missed dinner w/ the girls and staying at the hotel that I paid for all by myself. Ugh.

My pitty party is over. I'm done with my sulking. I'm just going to go figure out dinner and the kids now. I haven't eaten all day. I'm hungry. Bye!