How Could It Be Different?

I don't feel like I've caused things to be felt and I won't, I know it has nothing to do with me. But how could I change the way things are? Is there something I can do to make things a little different? Did it all start with me? Or were things already set in motion the way things would be before I came to be? Somehow I feel like I wish by me being here now could make things better and erase any pain or feelings. Don't let my existance affect relationships you've had from day 1. I know it's not possible nor is it up to me. This is just my personality and how I always want everyone to be happy and things to turn out good.

Am I selfish because it never crossed my mind what all would be drudged up? My only concern was affecting present day. I guess I should've thought it over from all angles. Even if I had thought it from all sides I honestly would not have done anything differently.

I know it's not me and it has nothing to do with me. Just know I love you just as you are. I wouldn't want you to be any different. I am not disappointed in any way. I am proud at how much you've accomplished. We're so much a like in so many ways. You are loved. If you need to bow out for now I will be right here waiting for you. I waited for 26 years and will continue to wait if I need to.

Love - Me