Why Do I Worry?

Why in the world do I worry so much? I'm a nervous wreck for a stupid reason. There truly isn't a reason to, but of course I do. I can't help it. This is me. I'm nuts! At least Jana understands me more than anyone else in this world. I think I also inherited "worry" genes as well. :-)

The Auburn game was heart stopping! Jana and I would just start yelling and screaming. Jackson a couple of times started yelling "go, go, go". So adorable! I thought for a while we were going to just throw it all away but no, we made it! Because of the OSU/Michigan game hype our game didn't get much attention. That game seemed pretty intense while watching it via the picture in picture thingy.

The kids were crazy tonight! Now Jana knows why I go crazy sometimes over the weekends. They were all over the place and just bonkers. No one wanted to settle down and I'm telling you I thought I was going to pull my hair out. But I survived the night with all of my hair intact. They're both sweet and adorable but sometimes they can be a little much coming at you all at once.

There is nothing on TV right now so I'm watching Dr. 90210. Yeah, Dr. Rey is just sleazy to me. I would deck him if I was a patient and he talked all sexually harassingish to me. I can't believe anyone would want to go to him. I'm watching a tummy tuck right now where they tightened the muscles and cut out huge flaps of skin. I'm dying for a tummy tuck but eww! I am not feeling it right now. I'm better off not knowing what happens. When I had my breast reduction I knew about the surgery but hadn't seen it done on TV
or anything. I was also so young, barely 14. Reading up on the surgery now and knowing what they did it's scary to think of. How gross is it that they pin your areola to your stomach while they do the surgery and then reattach them? And there is a chance that your nipples could "die" and fall off. Thank goodness I didn't have any problems. I lucked out and had age on my side. I was told when I went for my 6 week post op visit that I had healed better than any other patient he had had. The crazy thing is I'd love to have a slight reduction. Ideally, if I wasn't scared of implants and the cost of them, I'd love a mini-reduction and a small implant to give me a lift. After having 2 kids my breats are soooo saggy. I'm only 26 and shouldn't have the 90 year old lady boobies that go straight to the floor. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for my tummy tuck. How great would it be to have a huge slab of fat cut off and to have my stomach muscles tightened so they could actually become a 6 pack if I want (and hell no I don't want a 6 pack). I just want a flat stomach and 1 stomach only instead of the 2 I have no. I also would like to have my sides and back lipo'ed to give it an even look. Throw in procelain veneers and I'm on cloud 9. No more gaps. I've had them my entire life and I hate them. It's the one thing I would change about me before anything else. I can't help it. Braces won't work so veneers are my only route. Those suckers are expensive though. This entire paragraph sounds like I'm so self-asorbed but I'm not. It'd just be nice to feel comfortable in my own skin and confident. I would like to be able to be with my husband without cringing the entire time in the dark because I hate my body. I think it'd be better for him too. Okay, I'm so going. This topic has gone way off what it should've been.